Chapter 6: Naked

Chapter 6: Naked

That night they were invited to a party on a boat by a neighbor across the lake. It was a packed and Luxx wasn’t a fan of crowded spaces. When they got back to the dock it was 3 in the morning and almost everybody was drunk. Someone and she wasn’t sure who because she did actually drink, but someone had an idea to swim. So everybody stripped down and jumped in the ice cold lake. It wasn’t the first time they’d had a late night underwear swim session. With Landon attached to her she eventually couldn’t feel the cold. This whole public relationship thing was not so bad. For some reason she was a little horny.

Everyone was dripping wet heading back up to the house. As soon as Luxx got Landon in the bedroom she locked the door and kissed him. Maybe it was because she drank or just because she’d had so much sexual frustration built up. Whatever the reason she wanted him badly. He lifted her up against the wall and yanked her panties off. Her body felt like it was on fire. She gasped when he was inside of her; this man really knew how to please. After taking her against the wall he took her in the bed too. They never said a word because words weren’t needed.

In the afternoon Luxx got out of bed and took a shower, Landon was still sleep when she was getting dressed. Down in the kitchen she found Claudia sitting at the table with her laptop and a cup of coffee. She grabbed a cup of coffee and a bagel and went to sit at the table. Charlie would yell at her about drinking coffee but he wasn’t home. He made a new friend at the party and stayed behind when they left. Landon had been so happy so that he could keep her away from Charlie. Luxx was in a completely blissful mood, nothing could bring her down right now. Even if her thing with Landon didn’t last very long she wanted to have a sex life.

“So did you sleep with Ali again?” She asked her friend who nodded without looking up from her computer. “Are you still a virgin?” That question got Claudia to give her a “duh” look.

“He wanted it badly and I still refused,” Claudia said.

“Are you ok?” Luxx asked though it was obvious that she wasn’t.

“My mom said to me that she doesn’t want me to marry him because she thinks he will hurt me. I’m starting to wonder if his intentions were not just to see what he could get me to do. Yesterday I woke up smiling and today I’m confused,” Claudia admitted.

“Claudi, he wouldn’t drive 3 hours to test out if he could have sex with you. All he would have had to do was lure you to his apartment. Do you really think he’s just playing with you? This is his future too; if he pisses you off you could walk away.”

“It just scares me and I’m starting to like him. But if he’s just being dishonest and deceitful I will never get married. Ali or no one and I don’t know which would disappoint my father more.”

“Then I guess it’s good that you have great friends that could get him drunk and ask him things. The guys wanted to have their own day since we’re doing the spa thing tomorrow.”

“I might have to take you up on that, I was trying to talk to Jaya but she didn’t answer,” Claudia sighed. They could hear the front door open and seconds later Charlie came into the kitchen.

“Walk of shame,” Luxx said and Claudia laughed.

“Yes I am quite shameful but I had a very good night and morning,” Charlie said with a smile. He joined them at table and took her coffee and start drinking.

“I had a very good night too,” Luxx sighed.

“Now you ruined my mood,” Charlie said making a face.

“Can I ask you both a stupid question without you making fun of me?” Claudia asked and they both nodded. “Is sex really all that great?”

“Go back up and let your hottie fiancé teach you about it,” Charlie said.

“It can be pretty amazing but sometimes it sucks, depends on the person. I understand your abstinence but I don’t think I could marry a guy without testing him out first. Especially since your family doesn’t believe in divorce, it would suck to have bad sex forever,” Luxx said.

“There’s nothing to worry about Claudi-pie, I’m willing to bet that he can please,” Charlie said. “That is just obvious; too bad he’s straight and engaged.”

“He wants to have sex I know it, he won’t say so though. And I liked teasing him a little cause it amused me, but I can’t have sex with him.  Even if he will be the first I just can’t until we are married,” Claudia sighed.

“Honey, there are plenty of things you can do that don’t involve penetration,” Charlie told her. “Pronounce your real name for me cause I’m pretty and talented not smart.”

“Haven’t I done this a million times? Ah-Ash-Na, only Ali calls me that. My family and his family call me Na-Na, don’t either of you call me that,” Claudia said.

“What does it mean?”

“Devoted to or beloved, I suppose its fitting.”

“Did somebody else leave?” Luxx asked, she definitely heard the front door. She had figured everybody was still asleep.

“No, I’ve been down here like an hour everybody is still sleep,” Claudia said.

The three of them turned and in seconds two people walked in. Luxx wasn’t sure if she was more shocked or Claudia was. Standing there smiling was Claudia’s sister Jaya and her brother Rueben. Which meant that Rueben knew about her and Landon and this was bad. Before she didn’t really think much of the consequences of this little thing since they were on vacation. She’d been saving thinking about everything else until this trip was over. Rueben meant reality was coming in and she didn’t want reality, she wanted her early morning wild sex with Landon. Why couldn’t she just be blissful for a few more days? There was no way around the fact that things were going to be different at home. If she was honest she was too busy for a boyfriend.

“Hey, I was bored so I told Rueben he should give me a ride,” Jaya said.

“Well gotta love family drama, I’m out, have fun,” Charlie said. He kissed Luxx’s cheek on his way out of the kitchen.

“Come on Na-Na we need to talk,” Jaya said to her sister.

“Fine,” Claudia shook her head and gave Luxx a sympathetic look before following her sister. So now she was alone with her brother.

“Which one of them told you?” Luxx asked him and he just sat down at the table.

“I know somebody that saw you outside of Landon’s apartment building kissing,” Rueben said. “It wasn’t my idea to come here but Jaya followed me home from work yesterday and woke up today with an idea. She’s worried about her little sister, so why not come see mine too?”

“Rue, I’m fine and you have nothing to worry about,” Luxx told him.

“Don’t I? Of all the people in the world you pick Landon?” He asked and she rolled her eyes. “How long have you known him? Shouldn’t you know better?”

“Yeah I should but I’ve been spending a lot of time with Landon and I like him. Maybe it’s stupid and maybe he will get bored next week and break my heart, but it’s my choice.”

“Lu, you make bad choices when it comes to guys.”

“Be honest you would never approve of any guy I date,” she replied. When they were little they called each other Rue and Lu since it rhymed.

“Probably not, you could just be with Charlie,” he said and they both laughed.

“If he wasn’t gay I would love to marry Charlie, I might just do it anyway,” she said.

“He wasn’t that gay when you had sex with him,” he pointed out. At that they both laughed, because though it was true it was hilarious.

“You had sex with Charlie?” Someone asked and she turned to see Landon staring at her. “How is that possible?”

“Um yeah he was curious and I was a virgin and he was my first,” she explained. Neither her nor Rueben could stop laughing.

“I think that is the craziest thing I’ve ever heard,” Landon said. His shocked expression made it funnier for some reason. Though when she’d told Rueben after it happened he was first shocked then he laughed about it.

“Doing that probably made him gayer,” Rueben said. They laughed but Landon didn’t, even her parents laughed about it. Then again maybe her family was close in an odd way. They talked about everything but they weren’t close in a weird Kardashian sort of way.

“It wasn’t even bad actually but yeah it definitely made him gayer,” she laughed.

“Wow,” Landon just shook his head like they were insane. “So I guess you told your brother about us Luxx?” He asked in an odd tone, was he mad about something?

“No, you know if I hadn’t you just would have and he could have been shocked,” she said. Her brother laughed and she couldn’t help but to laugh too.

“I was shocked to hear about the two of you,” Rueben admitted.

“You came up here for that?” Landon asked, he still seemed mad but it couldn’t be about the Charlie thing. Or could it?

“Uh not really I’m here because Jaya Kapoor is a pain in the a*s,” Rueben shrugged. Once upon a high school time he’d had a relationship with Jaya and they were still friends. Sometimes they were definitely more than friends, it was amusing to Luxx.

“Landon is something wrong?” She asked because there obviously was something and if it wasn’t Charlie then what was it? Was it because Rueben knew they were togetherish? Uncharacteristically he didn’t even get mad or tell her not to continue on with this.

“Nope,” Landon replied pouring himself a cup of coffee. Then he took his cup and left the kitchen. She felt like he stabbed her heart.

“You like him? Really? I don’t have to interfere little sister he will screw up all on his own. Are you sure you want to be used and tossed aside by Landon? There is no amount of loneliness that’s worth what he’ll do to you,” Rueben said seriously.

“I don’t know why he’s being weird cause you are being surprisingly nice. Last night we had fun and I thought everything was great. And he like told everybody that he wanted to be with me. Maybe not, maybe the reality of this is that it’s a fling and he won’t ever feel anything more for me. But you’re right that I have been kind of lonely and I did want somebody to like that liked me. Despite all the reasons it doesn’t make sense, Landon was safe for me. He’s somebody I know and trusted, that was why it was ok,” she sighed.

“Go see what’s up, though if you’re breaking up I can’t say I’ll be disappointed,” he said.

“Thanks Rue, you sure know how to cheer people up,” she grumbled.

Reluctantly she went up to the bedroom to find Landon. Maybe she really did need to end this thing. After having sex last night/ this morning, she’d felt connected to him. That could have just been an illusion, something she made up in her head. But she thought of the things he’d said and how things were before. None of it made sense unless Landon finally came to his senses about her. She knew she wasn’t his type at all, so maybe that was it. When she got to the room he was sitting on the bed looking pensive.

“Do you have a problem? Cause I don’t remember you acting like this last night,” she said. Getting to the point was much easier than drawing it out and she wanted to understand.

“You seriously had sex with Charlie?” Landon asked sounding appalled.

“Yeah, so what? Why do you care who I’ve had sex with? It was one time and a long time ago,” she shrugged. Was it really so awful?

“How was that even possible?” He asked instead of answering.

“Actually it was pretty easy and he said it was because he loves me. It was my first time and he’s my best friend so it was ok for it to be him. Why do you have a problem with it? I’m definitely the only girl he’s been with and he’s still very gay.”

“That is just weird, it caught me off guard and so did your brother being here.”

“Him and Jaya showed up, so what? If this is how you act for no reason then we don’t need to be together. I was happy when I woke up and you totally killed my good mood. I really don’t understand your issue here. And Rueben didn’t even say anything, he was being nice,” she said annoyed.

“What did you tell him? I know your brother Luxx, he’s probably plotting my death right now,” he grumbled.

“Officially I have lost my good mood,” she said shaking her head. “This is ridiculous, if you don’t want to be with me just say so. If you want out don’t torture me because of it. What you think if you tell me it’s over I’ll get Rueben to beat you up? If you think that then you don’t know me at all. It’s like every day you find a reason not to be with me so please just end it now. And don’t act like your choices have anything to do with me or my brother. I don’t have the strength to go through another crazy and emotionally turbulent relationship.”

“Do you honestly want to be in a relationship with me knowing what you do about me?” He asked unexpectedly.

“I did but right now I don’t know, you need to make a choice right now.”

“You have no idea how much I want you Luxx, but I don’t trust myself to have a relationship. Oh and yeah you and Charlie kind of freaked me out. Do you not notice how he feels about you? His feelings for you are way strong than mine ever could be,” he told her.

“Um I think you are mistaken, Charlie and I just have a special connection and I love him. There is nothing wrong with loving each other. What you feel threatened by him? He is gay and though we would be perfect for each other I couldn’t really be with him. Like I couldn’t picture Charlie penning me to the wall to have sex,” she said and he laughed.

“I’m not threatened by him but you underestimate his feelings for you. Anyway I want to be with you and I’m afraid to hurt you. And you know I’m very good at pushing people away,” he admitted. “Oh and so you know I have had the best sex of my life with you.”

“Stop being dramatic Landon, I’m just trying to have fun and have one small piece of happiness,” she told him. Just like that he crossed the room to where she was leaning against the wall and kissed her. He also pulled her over to the bed. “No, I can’t have sex while my brother is downstairs.”

“Tell him to leave then I can keep you in bed all day making it up to you from me being stupid. I’ll give you a way better work out than you get dancing,” he said.

“Oh I would love that but he won’t leave until Jaya’s ready and that might take all day,” she sighed. It was awful how easy she was for him but she was on vacation so it wasn’t that bad. But what would she do once they went back to their real lives? She didn’t have time for a boyfriend, so she should tell him, right? For some reason the words just never came.

 

 

Claudia wasn’t really surprised that her sister just showed up. This was such a Jaya thing to do. Especially having Rueben drive her here because she was not-so-secretly in love with him. Jaya wanted to go up to the room she was currently sharing with Ali. There was no good way to warn her of what she was going to see. While this was her free spirited wild and crazy sister, it would be shocking. How was she supposed to explain without it sounding bad? She really didn’t have sex with Ali but he was naked in the bed. Which Jaya could see as soon as she opened the door.

“What the hell is going on with you two?” Jaya asked looking back and forth between them. Usually it was Bakula that would freak out over everything.

“I was about to get dressed,” Ali said completely unfazed. He was standing there in all his naked glory and Jaya was staring at him. Not that he had anything to be ashamed of; Claudia felt slightly inadequate looking at him. Technically this was the first time she actually saw him naked.

“Na-Na! Did you have sex with him?” Jaya asked staring at her in what looked like horror mixed with outrage. Thankfully Ali did put clothes on so he was less distracting.

“No, I did not wait all this time just to do it randomly,” Claudia said. Her cheeks definitely had to be red because this was very embarrassing.

“Calm down Jaya, I’m not forcing your sister into anything she doesn’t want,” Ali said. Why was he so calm? That wasn’t how she was feeling.

“Why are you naked?” Jaya asked the obvious question.

“Sorry Jaya that isn’t really your business. What I do with my future wife is between me and her,” Ali said. “I’m going to shower, and I will see you ladies once I’m fully clothed.” On his way out he kissed Claudia’s cheek and winked at her. Jaya shut the door once he was gone.

“It’s not what you think I will not have sex with him until we are married,” Claudia said. Not that at this point her innocence seemed as intact as it had been a few days ago.

“Naked, Aashna, he was naked,” Jaya said still in shock.

“Um ok so last night we went to this party on a boat and I admit I had one drink but not because of him. For once in my life I just wanted to be normal and free and like everybody else. He had a few drinks though and we kissed a lot. Then when we were all back we had a late night swim, so um we were both wet when we came to bed. And Ali suggested that we just sleep naked together and we did. But the lights were out we didn’t really see each other or anything; it was sort of about feeling. He didn’t take advantage of me if that’s what you think, I agreed to it. We and by that I mean mostly him, but we touched each other,” Claudia admitted. When she saw her sister’s expression she turned away and distracted herself with making the bed.

“Mom was so worried about you yesterday Na-Na, she doesn’t want you alone with him. She even told me she doesn’t really want you to marry him. I’m all for doing what you want to but this is crazy. Ali is such a w***e; he has sex with every girl that he deems good enough. I’ve seen him at parties; he should be tested for STDs. You are way too good for him and he knows it. I saw his sister yesterday and she said he’s been calming down his life because she told him repeatedly that you wouldn’t like it. Oddly she said he doesn’t want to disappoint you,” Jaya told her. They both sat down on the neatly made bed.

“Jaya, I want to feel something for once instead of pretending it doesn’t matter. I don’t want to be unhappy and I know he has to earn my trust,” she sighed. “He doesn’t want me to go to med school.”

“Why? So you can sit home and have his babies? Or is it because you are way smarter than he is?”

“No, it’s because he knows I don’t want to.”

“How does he know that? I just barely know that and La would die to hear you actually say it.”

“Um he asked me like a while ago, it’s the most personal thing we’ve ever talked about. And he wants to talk to our parents about it because he said he wants me to be happy.”

“He is good I’ll give him that. Win you over by trying to give you the one thing you want most in the world,” Jaya shook her head. “Are you really ok letting him do whatever to you?”

“I never had an orgasm until he gave me one,” she said.

“Wow,” Jaya replied just staring at her. It was definitely the most shocking thing she ever said to any of her sisters. “There is no good way to reply to that because it’s too crazy for words. Though I guess I can’t talk because I was definitely letting Rueben pleasure me when I was like 15. If I’m bored he still will, don’t tell him but I so love him.”

“Then why aren’t you with him?” She asked, she never understood most of what her sister did.

“Good question, why do I do anything? I love Rueben and he knows but I can’t be tied down to anyone. Freedom is something I can’t give up because I worked too hard for it. Finally six years later our father actually speaks to me.

 

 

 

Ali had a huge problem that no amount of self pleasure or cold showers could fix. Never in his life did he expect to want Aashna this badly. Yes, he’d always thought she was attractive but he was so rarely close to her. That time he’d told her about on the way too long plane ride was the only time they were that close. Before that it was when he kissed her for the first time but they were alone for all of 10 minutes. Right now he was desperate for her and only her. Usually he would just find somebody else to service his needs. Not this time, it had to be her or no one. Now that her sister was here she was probably not going to let him touch her. Though technically touching her was the problem.

The first time she let him touch her he’d known she never had an orgasm. Watching her just let go in his arms had been amazing. So naturally he’d been anxious to try it again. She was starting to consume his thoughts more so than she or any other woman ever had before. When he went back to her room she was laying on the bed talking to Jaya. Since her sister wasn’t sitting on the bed he went to lay beside her. And Jaya glared at him when he curled around her and she let him. Though it was probably a bad idea with his problem, oh yeah it was.

“Ali,” Aashna whispered turning to look at him. Obviously she felt it too.

“I can’t do anything about that, I tried,” he told her. While she blushed her sister gave him a disgusted look.

“Are you really like rubbing up against her?” Jaya asked staring at him.

“No, I’m tired and I’m just laying with my fiancé,” he replied.

“So when you get home will your w****s be waiting for you? Or are you going to pretend like you care about my sister?” Jaya asked, it was funny she use to be the fun sister.

“My life is going to be devoted to making my bride happy,” he said.

“How will you do that exactly? Obviously she’s not going to be able to help you with your erection.”

“It will go away eventually,” he said though it was pretty doubtful.

“Not with you all snuggled up with the object of your lust,” she challenged.

“Well it’s worth it,” he said staring her in the eyes.

“Can you both stop talking like I’m not here?” Aashna asked them both and she rolled onto her back so she could look at them.

The friction just made his problem worse and he definitely almost moaned. No girl ever had this affect on him; then again there was never one he couldn’t have. A year was a very long time, especially to wait and get next to nothing. Jaya was right about his lifestyle, he was use to getting what he wanted. Of course her sisters knew and checked up on him. Aashna was very lucky her sisters loved her so much. He wasn’t so close to his siblings anymore. Not since he told his brother he’d seen his wife with another man. The thing his brother was most angry about was that Ali knew a pretty big secret. Rohan’s oldest and youngest children were not actually his. The rest of the family didn’t know that, he could keep a secret.

His sister hated his lifestyle and that was why she was a little distant. Recently she’d been around more guilt tripping him since the wedding would be soon. It was rare for him to go more than a few days without sex or at least hooking up. Last night when he had Aashna naked in the bed he wanted her so bad. Instead of acting on his urges he took care of her. He was learning her body and what she liked. And she did touch him a little but she was very hesitant. So he took his frustration out on pleasuring her. But Jaya was right; this was going to be hard. Unless of course he trained his little innocent bride to please him, that idea had promise. Laying here his thoughts were easily turned to the ways in which she could help him with this. If only her annoying sister would leave.

“Sorry,” he said kissing her shoulder.

“Na-Na, why don’t you let me and Ali have a private chat?” Jaya asked her sister.

“Its fine, I’ll talk to her,” he said. Without a word she got up from the bed looking a little too relieved for his ego.

“Don’t kill each other,” Aashna said and left the room.

“Ali my sister is not your plaything and I won’t let her marry you for you to use and hurt her. The only reason you want her is because she’s a virgin and saving herself for you,” Jaya said as soon as they were alone.

“I want her because she is mine and has been since the day she was born. If it hadn’t been for you being born two months before me and her being born on my birthday, you and I would be married. In comparison I’m happy it’s her, my little gift. She will make a better wife than you ever could,” he said. With them being alone he didn’t have to be nice.

“That honey is what we call divine intervention; I would have killed you if we were married. If I wouldn’t marry one a*****e I sure the hell wouldn’t marry you. Why don’t you do the right thing for once in your life? Let her go, she doesn’t deserve to spend her life with you. She is all that is good and sweet in the world and she shouldn’t be hurt by you because you think it’s funny,” she told him. It was pretty obvious that she was very serious.

“Why would I do anything to hurt her? What would be the point? I don’t have to prove myself to you or your other sisters. Only one person’s opinion of me matters even though you try to poison her against me. So then what? Say she chooses not to marry me? Then your parents will find someone else. Someone that she hasn’t known her whole life and could potentially be awful to her. Oh and she’d be losing her virginity to a stranger. At least I care about her and making her happy, which I will. And I know just how inexperienced she is. What would really be the point of having my wife hate me? I would be suffering then and trust me I don’t want to be stuck in a crappy marriage. She will be happy I will make sure of it,” he told Jaya.

No matter how much he wanted or needed to have sex he couldn’t live with a bad marriage. After the wedding they would be living together and he didn’t want unnecessary stress. One day they would have children and he couldn’t live with what Rohan was dealing with. Cause while his brother was desperate to divorce his s**t wife, he couldn’t. Those were his kids and he raised them, he didn’t want to lose them. Besides s****y the wife didn’t want to be humiliated by a divorce, even though she loved someone else. It was all so dramatic and it wasn’t what he wanted for his own life. Around the time that he found out about that whole mess was when he changed his life. That apparently was the shock he needed to get on the right track. Rohan had been married ten years now and that was a long time to be miserable.

The trouble was that he couldn’t really tell that to Jaya. Ali didn’t break promises so he would never tell anyone about the kids. His brother had 4 kids and the youngest was only 10 months old. And the more Ali thought about his brother the more he needed to make his future wife happy. His sister-in-law had been in love with somebody before she got married, someone her parents didn’t approve of. She’d been seeing him on and off over the years thus the situation with the children. Now that the parents knew she cheated there was no way they would let her see this guy again. Drama, it was like watching a soap opera.

What if because he wanted his freedom Aashna found someone else? It would be fairly easy for that to happen. She was an amazing person and so beautiful and any guy would be lucky to have her. He was very lucky, sex or not. Wasn’t the future more important than fleeting pleasure in the present? His sister pointed that out very often and she was right. Not that he could really admit it. Sex, he learned was not the most important thing. In his head he got that but his body ached for her.

“I don’t trust you Ali, I spoke to your sister,” Jaya said. For a moment he was a little lost in thought.

“What did she say? That all I do is screw around? It was true but definitely not anymore. Do I want to have sex with your sister? Hell f*****g yeah I do and I can admit it. But it won’t be happening. Devi has her opinion and she can tell you anything, I don’t care. There’s no rule that says my sisters-in-law have to like me. As long as she is happy I will be happy,” he said. “And I will start with making sure she does not go to med school.”

“Are you really pushing this because you care what she likes? Or because she’s smarter than you and could potentially make more money than you?”

“You are so comical not every man is like Jivin, I definitely am not. I know she’s smarter than I am and that is fine. Shouldn’t you as her sister care about if she’s going to be miserable? No amount of money would make her want to be a doctor. This like your marriage is what your father wants. My wife will be happy and do what she wants. I don’t like the options he gives his daughters. Doctor or babies, I’m graduating I don’t need kids right now.”

“Did you tell my sister that you and I hooked up that one time?” Jaya asked and he never expected it.

“Why would I? That was what we call a drunken mistake, she doesn’t need to know. Neither does your boyfriend Rueben,” he said.

One night in high school at a party a little something happened with Jaya. They did not have sex but he did feel guilt over it. Her sister was very young then so they weren’t anywhere near being together. But it felt like he was cheating because they were sisters. And at that point though Jaya had a boyfriend and her parents already picked her a husband. Jivin was not a good person, he was in fact awful. So she was justified in her refusal but Jaya was over the top with her rebellion. Ali had no feelings for Jaya and he never saw her as attractive, just as his future sister-in-law. There was no competition between those sisters of the four Aashna was the prettiest. Mostly because unlike her sisters she wasn’t trying she was just natural that way.

“I swear if you hurt her I will kill you,” she warned.

“Why would I hurt her? My parents would never let me get a divorce and an unhappy wife makes an unhappy home. So what I admit I use to do whatever the hell I wanted with no fear of consequences. She knows that and it’s not a secret from her. I’m not saying I’m in love with her or anything but I do have feelings for her. Are you ever going to just try to believe that everybody isn’t evil? You don’t have to trust me, my own sister doesn’t and you don’t have to like me. But I will marry your sister and I will do whatever it takes to make her happy,” he said. Who was surprised more him or her by his words he didn’t know, but it was true.

“Are you being like this because your brother’s wife cheated on him?” She asked, of course she knew since her mother knew. His mother told her mother everything.

“Kavindra is a w***e and I’m sick of hearing about it. Maybe I start to think what if my wife was in love with somebody else? What if because I’m selfish she found somebody else? Why does your sister want to marry me Jaya? I know that the answer is to please your parents, not because I’m all that great. Sweetie I know what reality is and that is fine, it doesn’t change anything. No reason not to be honest, I have nothing to hide, can you say the same?” He asked and she glared at him once again.

Sure, he could have been nice and left that last part out. It could have led to her believing him. But he didn’t want anyone’s approval. Well maybe just one person and he was working on that. His parents’ approval really didn’t even matter, was he raised to be a good obedient son? Yes, did he for the most part listen to his parents even though he was grown? Yes, the thing was that his parents didn’t really see a problem with his life. Of course they didn’t want him dating and his mother didn’t like that he had sex, but they would never tell him not to. It was his choice to be a lawyer and his parents supported it. They thought it was a good choice of careers and they had some connections.

Ali was starting to realize his life was pretty easy and he was really spoiled. He almost always got what he wanted. As if on cue Aashna returned, the one thing he could not have. She had on a tank top and shorts, this was the most uncovered he ever saw her. Except when he’d taken her clothes off in the past two days. Her father was strict and he didn’t like his daughters showing too much skin. Aashna was the definition of a good daughter; she was the daughter parents would kill to have. Seeing her had him growing hard once again, talking to her sister cooled him off a lot. This type of thing never happened with him and it would be his luck for it to be a virgin that affected him like she did.

“Are you done talking? Everybody’s finally up and they want to go out for lunch. Oh and Jaya, Rueben wants you,” she said.

“Mustn’t keep dear Rueben waiting,” Jaya said dramatically. With one last dirty look at Ali she left the room.

“Do you want to go?” Aashna asked him, he couldn’t really read her expression. But he figured he probably was making her uncomfortable with his bodily issues.

“Yeah, if you want to, I’ll follow you,” Ali said.

“Ali,” she started looking lost for words. “Um what can I do for you? Like I mean to help you with that?”

“What?” He asked because he had to have heard her wrong, there was no way she was asking how to please him.

“I just don’t really know what to do; it was never something I was interested in knowing about. And it’s a little less embarrassing to ask you instead of my sister. Luxx would probably tell me though but I feel stupid about this,” she explained.

“Wow, I just never expected this,” he admitted.

“The way you’re looking at me sort of makes me regret asking,” she said. So he got up and put his arms around her.

“I’m just surprised; we can talk about that later. Don’t feel obligated to do anything you don’t want to, I’m not asking you to do anything,” he said.

Any other guy would have jumped at this chance but he couldn’t. Here he was as hard as he’d ever been in his life and he was being offered relief but he was talking her out of it. He had to remember this wasn’t just any girl; this was going to be his wife. Didn’t his mother say repeatedly to be respectful? Was it truly not respectful to tell her to get on her knees and put his penis in her mouth? Or to tell her to use her hand to get him off? Yeah it probably was and she’d never done anything like that before. What he really wanted was to be inside her tight little body. When it happened he knew it would be amazing, but that was next summer. This line of thinking wasn’t helping him at all.

“Just tell me what you want,” she said. She was biting her lip looking up at him and he could have come just from looking at her. Hesitantly her finger traced his massive erection that couldn’t be hidden. There was no way to stop the involuntary moan, especially when she kept doing it.

“Aashna, my mother told me to be respectful of you,” he whispered.

“Call me Claudia and your mother doesn’t need to know about this. I know her she isn’t going to ask if we’ve touched each other or seen each other naked. She would never think that I would let you touch me and we both know that,” she replied.

“Claudia,” he sighed and she smiled. There was no hiding that she was affecting him and it was her that pulled him over to the bed. “Um I thought we were going to lunch?”

“If you’re hungry I can cook for you, I might have told them we were staying. And Luxx might have convinced her brother to distract my sister,” she said. While she spoke she was undoing his jeans. “Before I completely lose my nerve tell me what you want me to do.”

“You’ll really do anything?” He found himself asking feeling a little desperate.

“Anything but sex,” she said.

“I um I can’t,” he said. The words came from his mouth but his body wasn’t in agreement. It felt like this was wrong like he was corrupting her. She was too innocent for oral sex, the two didn’t mix.

“Ali,” she purred giving him a sinful look. Oh the way she said his name, this was torture. What truly was right and wrong here? It was her idea and it was what she wanted.

“You are not the girl I thought I knew,” he said and she smiled.

“Nobody really knows me Ali, I think about things sometimes. My Nani said that a woman’s job is to please her husband, so I’m trying.”

“We aren’t married yet so there’s time.”

“Why are you rejecting me right now? Is it because you don’t want me or something else? Cause I’m just trying to give to you something and you won’t let me. I thought any guy would want that but there’s really no rule that says you have to marry me. Maybe it would be easier to be with someone that has more experience than I do,” she said. Though she kept it out of her expression, she was definitely hurt.

“You know I want you, the evidence of that is here. It’s just that I feel like you are so pure and innocent. I’ve never hesitated when I got an offer like this in the past. The difference now is that you are not somebody I’m hooking up with you are going to be my wife. This is just a weird situation and I don’t want you to feel pressured,” he told her. He kissed her then hoping that she would understand how he felt.

“If I’m going to be your wife it’s going to happen at some point. Unless you want a sexless marriage, I can’t be pure forever. After I let you do things to me I’m not so pure anymore am I? It was what I wanted and this is what I want. There is no pressure because you didn’t ask me, I in fact asked you. So Mr. Tandon, what is your decision?” She asked looking him in the eyes. At that moment he realized that he was in trouble and having her as a wife was going to be the most amazing thing ever.

“You are certain that you want to do this?” He asked needing a little push to continue.

“Yes,” she replied with no hesitation at all.

“Ok,” he nodded. “I want you mouth on me.” Just like that they were going to cross a line that there was no going back from. This was not what he expected to happen but this was obviously fate. Everything with them was about fate, so he had to go with it.

 

 

Amanda was starting to feel sick, obviously from her unwanted pregnancy. So at lunch she picked over her food and tried to play it off. Brett knew something was up with her. When she woke up today there was a ring on her finger. He put it on while she was asleep. It took her friends all of 5 seconds to notice it when she went downstairs. They were happy for her, but she wasn’t happy. Maybe it was because she felt like crap or it was a touch of guilt. It was so bad that she didn’t drink last night. Between feeling sick and feeling guilty and after the things Brett said, she couldn’t. So after lunch she went to lay down, it was very not like her.

All the things he said kept running through her head and driving her insane. In their time together he never really said anything like that. Yes, she knew it was all true and she was a mess. But it was just the way she was raised. Though that couldn’t be an excuse anymore since she was an adult and she knew better. The fear of him leaving her was also a little much for her. Under no circumstances did she at pathetic and clingy like she did yesterday. But she couldn’t lose him, he was everything to her. What would she really do without him? Like get a real job and support herself? Not only that being alone terrified her. Coincidently the need to not be alone was also her mother’s problem. They dealt with it differently. Her mother had a constant stream of men and she only wanted one.

After awhile Tess came to join her. Such a loyal friend she was, even though Amanda was a crappy friend. Bad friend bad girlfriend and bad person, that was Amanda. Why was she doing all this thinking? Usually she didn’t think she just lived. But her life had never been this complicated before. And she still wasn’t sure what she wanted to do about this baby thing. On one hand if she kept it then maybe she would have something else to focus on. Then Brett could see she wasn’t that selfish and that she could change.

If she wanted to show responsibility a puppy was a better choice than a child. You couldn’t really screw up with a pet. Children needed love, care and constant attention. And they definitely didn’t need to be used to extort money from married men. That was a scar that was never going to fade, she wished she didn’t know. It was proof of why she didn’t need to raise a child. Brett would make such a great father, maybe even great enough so that she wouldn’t do too much damage.

“Brett is really worried about you, he asked me if there was something going on with you,” Tess said. “I told him no of course but you could at least pretend to be happy. You’ve been waiting for him to propose forever and he finally has. I’ve never seen you like this except when Brett told you he needed a break from you. What’s wrong?”

“I don’t know what to do about this baby,” Amanda whispered.

“I thought you made up your mind and called your mom?” Tess asked like she was completely insane.

“No I didn’t decide and yes I called her. Tess I feel so awful and I don’t know what to do anymore, Brett like yelled at me yesterday. Like he said everything that is wrong with me and said he doesn’t want to be with me if I don’t change. The way he looked at me was like I disgusted him or something. I love him and it was awful I like begged him not to leave me. This is way too much at once I can’t even be happy about this engagement. What if it’s just temporary? What if he changes his mind because I can’t do things that wives are supposed to do like cooking and cleaning and stuff? I’m lazy, irresponsible, self, completely narcissistic and useless,” Amanda told her. Tears came to her eyes quickly and easily. The truth hurt like hell. “I can’t be a mother Tess, I can’t. Probably shouldn’t be a wife either.”

“Maybe you need to take some time apart, you rely on him too much. If you could find true independence then you would be fine.”

“Yeah and what if he found somebody? Any girl would want him he’s perfect. Even you would push me in front of a bus to have him.”

“Really?” Tess asked but her expression that she was trying to hide said it was true.

“Yeah really, I just can’t do this. And say I did have this baby, then what? I annoy him or his witch mother and they toss me out with a kid? That’s not even selfish cause that poor child would suffer. If I had a kid and I didn’t have Brett then I would have to subject another child to my mother’s insanity. It use to be fun and whatever, why is my life so serious? I just feel like I want to die,” she sniffled. More tears came and more and more and they were never ending.

Tess looked like she had no idea what to say and that was fine. Nothing could make her feel any better. Maybe she was being dramatic but it felt like the end of the world. For her it kind of was, she didn’t know what to do anymore. To make it all so much worse was when she looked up and saw Brett standing in the doorway. The look on his face suggested that he heard something. At least she didn’t say anything about the possibility of it not being his baby and the whole cheating thing.

“Hey Tess,” Brett said and she turned looking pretty horrified. “I think Mandy and I need to talk in private.”

“Um ok,” Tess said getting up. Before she left she squeezed her hand as a supportive gesture. Then she was gone and Brett shut and locked the door.

“Why were you listening at the door?” Amanda asked, that was very unlike him.

“Because I wanted to know what was going on with you and why you are acting weird. I saw Tess coming up here so I figured you would tell her what was bothering you. Honestly I figured maybe you didn’t want to marry me but I guess that would be easier. Are you pregnant Amanda? Don’t lie to me,” he said very seriously.

“Yes,” she whispered. That admission made the decision for her; he wouldn’t let her not have this baby now that he knew.

“How long have you known?” He asked and he still looked pissed.

“Couple days, I took the test while we were here,” she admitted.

“Why wouldn’t you tell me? I should have known when you didn’t want to drink and you were asking me if I wanted children.”

“Brett I can’t have a baby and I don’t want you to be with me just because I got pregnant. That is why I didn’t tell you.”

“Amanda I didn’t buy you a ring because you are pregnant, I did it because I love you. Is this why you and your mother need to take a trip? To hide this from me?”

“Yes,” she said at this point she couldn’t lie. But she also couldn’t tell him it might not be his, that wasn’t an option.

“Why would you do that? Is this stupid modeling thing really that important to you?” He asked and his hurt, shock and anger were all clearly shown in his expression.

“That actually has nothing to do with it. I can’t be somebody’s mother, look at my role model. She told me all my life how she got money for keeping me. You have no idea what that does to a person, your life and your family is perfect. I’m damaged and not a good person and I couldn’t torture a child by being its mother.  That would be cruel,” she told him.

“Actually I know what it’s done to you Amanda I’ve been with you for a long time. But you aren’t your mother and I am still with you. We can do this together, maybe the way my parents raised me was a lot better than what your mother did. Doesn’t really matter because we aren’t our parents. Mandy, don’t do this to me. I can’t force you to have a baby, but I’m asking you to reconsider. We can get married as soon as possible and I won’t tell my parents anything. Just please don’t do this,” he pleaded.

Some people thought she was a heartless b***h and sometimes she was. Seeing this sad look in Brett’s eyes was killing her. No more choices, there were no more choices. There was no backing out of this. Even though she thought this was a very stupid idea, she couldn’t hurt him like this. It would just tear him apart for her not to have a baby he thought was his. So was she being selfish now? Wasn’t she trying to do what was best for him? Somehow she was pretty sure she would definitely regret this.

“Ok,” she whispered then he came to her. He held her while she cried and she tried so hard to just stop. She had to do whatever it took to keep him, and that was all she knew for sure.