Plummeting

Secretly wanting you to notice that I am NOT okay.

I am depressed and strong

I wonder if the scars disappear 

I hear the blade hitting the ground

I see the regret in my eyes 

I want to feel something 

I am depressed and strong

 

I pretend to have a real smile

I feel empty; nothing

I touch it gentle hoping it bleeds a little more

I worry they will see my wrists

I cry every night, wishing I knew why

I am depressed and strong

 

I understand that no one cares

I say “It was the cat, just a scratch.”

I dream of the day I don’t wake-up

I try to be brave for you

I hope someone sees me drowning

I am depressed and strong