Why did it happen again?A Poem by KaiI had gotten up, felt my feet touch the floor and took a deep breath no one had ever told me it could be that hard to face near death I had gathered energy all day just to walk to the bathroom, what did I want to say? My memory blacks out like a book with ripped out pages You can't complete the story without them, Where do I start? It probably will take ages… The bathroom floor feels cold, calm, like moss my head is heavy… My eyes move around the room, I look across I see it, the metal… It makes me feel not worthy I can't even control my body, I had already picked it up My head shakes as I try to calm but my eyes just throb I look at my skin, all cut up I sigh to myself I never wanted this to happen, It feels like a startup I get up as I see the red blood leave behind stripes It drips to the floor, oh f**k I made a mess, what if someone will know? I clean it up, slow I did it again… Why did I do it? It should have never happened, I just can't stop it People tell me to trust them, but as soon as they know they leave me alone That's why I never talk That's why I shut myself That's why I shut up That's a memory, that will never be unlocked
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Added on October 24, 2021 Last Updated on October 24, 2021 AuthorKaiUnited KingdomAboutI was bored one day and decided to write poems, Please be careful reading my poems they are triggering! I am Kai, I Use He/Him pronouns and I'm trans. I am from Germany I like to read and I used to.. more..Writing
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