Please StopA Poem by KaiJust some thought I had on my mind <3
I've been lying to myself my whole life
Telling myself in the mirror that I'm beautiful even tho my mind says different Telling myself I'll be able to stop but the next day I'm on the Bathroom floor with my blade in my hand I shouldn't be Proud I shouldn't be proud each time I see blood dripping down my Thigh I shouldn't be Proud when I see my cuts get deeper each day almost to the point where I die I'm scared to talk Scared to say my feelings out loud because I got told that my mouth is like a waterfall I used to be proud of how I talked but now I just worry If I don't annoy people with the sounds that I make overall My body is exhausted My sleep schedule got destroyed by my sleepless nights and my panic attacks that I have My Body hurts and my legs slowly give up, my arms don't wanna move anymore and my eyes are always shut I shouldn't listen I get told every day that I need to stay but my mind tells me that the date comes closer and I feel like I need to obey I hate the little voice that tells me to finally make the move, I'm just scared and worried what If i don't succes? Will I be ever in the right mood? Please Stop I'm scared of each step I make, If I do the wrong one I may be 6 feet underground and never be awake Someone tell the voices to Stop screaming, I can't handle Life anymore and I wish I could be just dreaming
© 2021 KaiAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorKaiUnited KingdomAboutI was bored one day and decided to write poems, Please be careful reading my poems they are triggering! I am Kai, I Use He/Him pronouns and I'm trans. I am from Germany I like to read and I used to.. more..Writing
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