Please be aware that this is about suicide thoughts
I want to go somewhere far on an empty field and lay down and do nothing, just listen to the silence.
I want to go up on a tree and jump down while feeling the pain on my neck as I start suffocating on a rope.
I want to draw with silver and see red coming but seeing pink deep.
I want to sit in a blood lake while laugh as I feel how I slowly leave this word.
I want to feel my lungs fill up with water while I sit at the deepest point of the ocean.
I want to feel how my stomach burns as i consume bleach.
I want to see myself vomiting all over the place as i lose my sight and my ability to stay awake.
I want to pass out and forget everything.
I want to go to sleep and not wake up after.
I want to see my family cry as i take my last breath.
I want to laugh and see people being mad at me for not having feelings for other.
I don't care if you care for me and I don't care if you cry after I die.
I don't know how to get into someones situation and I am not able to figure out how people feel.
I don't know how to understand it when you tell me that you're sad.
I may look like I am trying my best to make you happy but I am trying to figure out how you feel instead.
I don't understand feelings.
I don't understand myself.
I learned to fit in by imitating the feelings, but I never know how they feel.
This is so brutal and painful. I understand the grounds you are standing on I just lost a dear friend who committed suicide and some of your lines speaks more of him. There are things that mouth cant say it so well but the heart does through writing. I hope every one who is through hard situations finds peace somewhere and realize life is worth living despite...
Hello, Kai! :)
The description really grabbed my attention.
I think you need to be more selfish. Humans are at the top of the food chain; own your spot.
I was bored one day and decided to write poems, Please be careful reading my poems they are triggering!
I am Kai, I Use He/Him pronouns and I'm trans. I am from Germany
I like to read and I used to.. more..