DAY BY DAY

thought after though: Prompt: Emma's Group

I do not want to be alone as I age

the love of my life is nine years older than me

I relish each day I shall have time with him

yet I dread the day that he passes before me

thus, my thoughts are constant day by day

 

When I am near him, and he slumbers like a baby

I check his breathing

it frightens me when it accelerates and is brassy

I struggle to let him be and not awaken him

 

We are reaching our 40 th anniversary the last of March

and I keep thinking this will be our last big one

there is much uncertainty about another

 

When we first me on a blind date

our age difference was of no consequence

we bonded in passion

nightly trysts by candle light

many gazes and laughs

traveled the world

 

Now, he is frail, weak, and tries intensely to please me

I am so grateful for his efforts

still, I have the energy to go, exercise, travel

yet I loathe that I must do most affairs alone

and my thoughts day after day remind me that to lose him

would be tragic

our unique affinity shall be just a memory

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

Thank you for reading!

Reviews

[Fabian G. Franklin]

I'm ten years senior of my wife. I may outlive her just to be stubborn. But I have every reason to go on living. Life is good. Such a sad and personal write but I can empathize and understand.

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you Fabian….i shouldn’t worry and i’m trying hard to live each day and enjoy….your comments are appreciated🌷🌷🌷🌷Warmly
B

[Pete]

well, men do tend to outlive women. all good things come to an end. life is short. you seem to be well aware of what's important. try not to focus what could be but rather what is and was.

[Betty Hermelee]

you are correct, but sometimes can’t help,it….can i use you as my shrink?… just kidding
Thanks Pete for your excellent reviews!
warmly, B🌷🌷🌷🌷

[Pete]

... i'm the last one you'd want for that ...

[Betty Hermelee]

can’t believe it!🌷🌷🌷

[Dylan Macadham]

Bittersweet, so well expressed :)
Time takes away everything.
But, in a way, it's good that you're preparing yourself for your Love's loss.

[Betty Hermelee]

thank you Dylan for a heartfelt review🌷
Warmly, B🌷

[Soren]

A poem of love that is not bounded by age but by who the person is. A most lovely write of what love is about and how trying to please the other is worth more than appearance or similarity in age itself. Very nice Betty

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you Soren for a very heartfelt review, munch appreciated!🌷
Warmly, B🌷

[Beren]

This is a real concern, about something that hasn't happened but could happen. And there's a funny thing about life in these situations: we don't know who's old enough to experience what.
Maybe sometimes we just need to be happy for the good memories we had. Soo many honest feeling are here and so loving.

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you Beren for a lovely compassionate review
Warmly, B🌷🌷

[Costa Siwale]

You poured your soul into this one, very authentic and sad, the fleeting nature of us all!
Well penned!

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you Costa, yes, straight from the heart!
Warmly, B

[Arundass TP]

Age deteriorates body. Time is God which points when to be here on this earth and when to go out. Consciousness is the real villian. A masterpiece poem from you. 👍

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you TP for a great review!!!
Warmly, B

[Lorry]

That is the biggest drawback from sharing your life with someone, that one day one will go and the other will be left alone.
It is never a good thought to have, but like life there is no getting away from it, no cheat code to go on eternally forever or to both leave at the same time (legally anyway)
It is best to think of the little victories you still have whilst together, as their will be plenty of time for regret later.
A new dawn, an unexpected smile where only you know why and just sharing your lives together day to day.
No one looks forward to life's conclusion but knowing you'll be leaving each other is the toughest of all.
I have often wondered if it would be best to be the one that goes first, so you don't have to see the others suffering, but if you did you know that is what they would be left with.

[Betty Hermelee]

A fine review Lorry and good advice…yes it’s hard either way… thank you my friend🌷🌷
read moreA fine review Lorry and good advice…yes it’s hard either way… thank you my friend🌷🌷
Warmly, B

[Tumi]

Such a sweet poem to write, wo heartfelt and loving
Time is like a creepy ghost lying in wait to strike as we age like moons
Really captivating!

[Betty Hermelee]

thank you Tumi, most appreciated!🌷
Warmly, B