A SUBTLE SMILE

I stretch my long arms way up to an azure blue sky

with wispy clouds floating by

a slight chill in the air

yet the sun toasts my skin

I launch into mixed up daydreams

reflecting my erratic past

I try not to think of all my mistakes and misgivings

contrary, focus on notions of my future

this time with a subtle smile on my face

 

At once I sense motion and extend my hands

down to my belly

I massage it gently in hopes that my baby

takes notice  that these are my hands, your mother

I find my self repeating that word, mother

with a certain gratitude

 

I take note of my heavy breasts

n*****s enlarged

a bit of a chubby face

all in preparation of the exhilarating event

just now I am four months with child

flutters inside evoke the reality of what is to come

 

Still, I sit on this bench in wonderment

regarding the two of us

it shall be lovely if this baby has a father

who knows him

yet this is not possible  straightaway

perhaps in the future if we are lucky

My soldier shall appreciate us  and we shall transform into a family of three

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

Thank you for reading!

Reviews

[Desert Knave]

So easy to see a pregnant mother contemplating life. Well done. ~Jim

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you Jim for a thoughtful review!
Warmly, B

[Thomas W Case]

Powerful work. Great job.

[Arundass TP]

I feel lot of expectations in this poem. Nicely written poem

[Betty Hermelee]

thank you TP, much appreciated!🌷Warmly, B

[Re-Pete]

with child indeed - everything changes. a revealing daydream with sad realities and hope nicely told.

[Betty Hermelee]

thank you, Pete, a lovely, supportive review!🌷

[Lorry]

Those erratic pasts do love to spoil a good daydream, don't they? Yet I think it's the present snd future that lead into your thoughts with the father in such a precarious predicament.
Now don't go trying to say precarious predicament ten times fast before your morning coffee, will you?
😃

[Betty Hermelee]

A wonderful and very understanding review Lorry, thanks so much🌷🌷
Warmly B

[jacob erin-cilberto]

the child will either meet or feel the father within...eventually.....
and will be so proud of him.

[Betty Hermelee]

you’re three steps ahead of me J…. love your comment and intuition🌷
warmly, B

[Patricia Wedel]

dearest Betty ... there are many circumstances that create an extraordinary person.... be it in a Novel or occurring in reality. It is amazing for a Woman to nourish her Child. All of Nature joins the Circle of Love. softly, Pat

[Betty Hermelee]

circle of love is a lovely thought, thank you Dear Pat
Warmly, B🌷