THE CONCLUSION

and so it goes....

I must decide regarding a visit to the gentleman

this I shall do in the park across the way

ts a sunny day with a cool breeze

and the fresh air shall help clear my mind

I walk at a swift pace to exercise my wobbly legs

the smell of fresh cut grass is luscious

and a hint of rose scent is in the air

a perfect place for contemplation

 

I locate a bench under a large oak tree

and view the sun as it peeks through

the branches thick with leaves

I watch people stroll by with prams, tricycles, and roller skates

a bit chaotic, I move to a more remote bench

not to be distracted from deep thought

now I am in a sunny spot where warmth shrouds

my shoulders

 

I remove his note from my purse and read it over and over

and try to understand all the consequences it may have on me

if I pay him a visit

I tally up all the pros and cons

and opt to visit the gentlemen

primarily out of loneliness

yet for affection as well

 

My day for the visit arrives

my body shakes all over

I wear my best outfit that does not show my belly

a bit tight, yet stunning, with trench coat

wads of makeup and a fine hairdo

I pace the room several times and look in the mirror

I am ready

 

 

The cab ride is about fifteen minutes

all the while I pick my fingers and powder my nose

the cab arrives at his address

a Tudor style house with lovely shade trees in front

quite a few steps to the entrance

I pay the cab driver

I ring the bell

and wait

at once, he opens the door

and recognizes me with a smile

straight behind him is a pretty woman

he introduces her as a friend

I feel faint, light-headed, embarrassed, angry

I turn around and race down the steps

he runs after me and calls my name,

he catches up and speaks some words I cannot understand

I still run quickly, stop once, look back and he disappears

 

I am out of breath with sobs and shakes

find a bench to catch my breath

wipe my tears, wheeze, cough, sniffle

what did I do?

I blame myself for this visit

how shall I overcome?

 

At long last I calm myself

and through all my anguish

over all I have suffered, I have come to understand

that I am not alone anymore

I have a child who is growing in my belly and I hope to have all the love and affection I have missed for so long

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

THE END! Thank you for those of you who supported me in this venture, much appreciated!

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

Men always lie like that...no wonder we get no trust.
Those of us who might be true blue...don't have those sisters....
but we are still suspects of ruining hearts.
j.

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you J..appreciate your comments..
Warmly, B

[Stella Armour]

I was hoping she might be introduced as his sister ... but i suppose it was too much to ask and i am so sad this story has come to an end .... :(
I have enjoyed reading all the chapters tho' and thank you Betty

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you Stella for being a great supporter with a lovely review🌷
Warmly, B