Isn't it Crazy!

Just a midnight peace that describes the feelings of a lost cause.

When I was younger I always thought to myself what my future was going to be like. I wondered if it was going to be simple, or confusing or maybe even difficult. I imagined everything from being the guy that saved people, to being the guy that sat in the corner and never spoke as if he was blind to see the light.  I offend wondered if I was going to be famous even with my incapability to sing or act.  Isn’t that Crazy? That you can so long in your life and wonder a million different things, but never find the true outcome of what your life is actually supposed to be like.  That we can go our whole lives travelling the roads of other people, and never stop to think to take the road untraveled, because maybe, just maybe that’s the path that’s going to take you on that ultimate journey. That journey that will change your life forever. The path that will bring you to your own personal Shangri-La. It’s insane that people are so blind to see what’s happening in front of them because of what distracts them, but what distracts them? Is it there own mind playing tricks on them, or maybe is the simple fact of jealousy or interest in other people that they cant see themselves.  Well I was blind, but now I see.

What is Compassion? Its pity, love, sympathy towards others. It’s the ability to see what others don’t have and bring your mind with theirs to see their suffering and feel their depth of pain. Now what is forgiveness? It’s the ability to forget the anger and to forget the passion within that anger and being able to throw away the past. See that’s the difference between most people, and me I spent my whole life following people that I knew were different from me, they were a******s, dicks, pricks, shallow minded fools. I followed them. I swam with there thoughts and brought my mind down to that standard. Which was low. I let them beat me; I let them take with them to a place I didn’t want to go. They tore me, took me away from myself. And every time I took that anger I had and brought it to happiness because I thought that was my “IN” I thought I was “COOL”. So I forgave them, I forgot the past…threw it away and never looked back. Because they were my friends right? But I look back at my childhood and compassion rides over me. It covers me in a liquid that seals my wounds and glues me back together. Because I looked back at those kids and saw the pain that they cause me, and I thought to myself if they can bring a person to such a low, to such a dark place and to a place where they don’t want to live anymore, where are they? What must be going through their mind? Is it full of sadness, happiness, and laughter or is it just empty? If they are willing to go so low for someone else how low are they? So it fills my heart to feel bad for them to warm my heart with thoughts and prayers. Because in the end life is all about you and why spend your time on someone else. Why be blinded by a light that’s so easy to see through? I am now and forever will be me.

 

-Better Places