Heal Her...

I was in pain from a bad day when I wrote this. It is 10:47 pm on 1/24/13. This is about a girl who is suffering for a good friend who is "dying inside".

You called me that night...You were in tears...You were in pain...
I wanted to help, indeed I did, but I didn't know how. I did not know if I even could.

I felt you drowning, I wanted to pull you back up. 
In a way, I did, but you kept near the shore, ready to jump back in if you desired.
But I stayed by your side, I stayed your best friend, and your sister, when you needed me most.

You know this.
You admire me for this.
This is why you always come to me for help.
But what if I can't help you?
What if all I can do is watch you drown, and hear your pain?

I hate it!
I hate hearing you cry!
I hate feeling your pain!
Please God, help this child! Please, help her...

She needs you. Tonight, tomorrow, and forever. 
She needs you God. 
I can not save her anymore.
I am an angel who's wing's are breaking, and so is my heart. I can not save this poor soul any longer without guidance.

God, please oh please, do not take her from me!

Please God, just heal her...

Author's Note

I know it is not my best, but I am in pain. All I want to do is curl up and sleep. But this is how I feel, and I want the world to know how it can cause pain to one child, and that can lead to many.