Hesistant

Doing things a different way.

For far too long I've lived this way
I played this game, and sang that song.
I sang your way and not my own, and
regretted always being alone.

But now I'm lost on what I want
Dragging my feet and shuffling my step.
But now I'm lost on what I need,
wanting to live, but not wanting to die.

I've wasted so much time, fighting deep inside.
Now, I haven't got much will enough to try
But inside there is a fire, still burning that is mine.