Heart.

I pour wine in my glass as I pour my heart out to you. 
I wipe the lipstick off of my teeth while you lie through yours.
You hold on to your pride while you should be holding on to my hand.
I feel my heart shatter instead of feeling butterflies in my stomach.
I taste tears in my mouth instead of your kisses.
I immortalize you with my words while you neglect me with yours.

So here… Lets have a toast to all of the mountains we didn’t move. All of the things you didn’t do right and all of the times I chose to love you anyway. I pray that somewhere between all of the words I failed to say to you, I forgive myself and move on…

-Benita Paloja

Reviews

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An apt title....pouring out the heart, but for the wrong reasons.

Your poem has a delicate, yet stern intensity throughout. Your alternating lines between your actions and the actions of the other are very inspired, and they combine to help the poem reach a satisfying conclusion.

Very neat writing.

[Dave]

Benita - so gentle and yet so strong. I wonder why you stay - how much neglect can one person, you take? I very much empathize with you even though, thankfully, I have someone who cares.

[Coyote Poetry]

Powerful and beautiful use of words and thoughts.
"So here… Lets have a toast to all of the mountains we didn’t move. All of the things you didn’t do right and all of the times I chose to love you anyway. I pray that somewhere between all of the words I failed to say to you, I forgive myself and move on…"
The above words. Gentle and honest. Thank you Benita for sharing your amazing poetry.
Coyote

[alanwgraham]

I like the way you have written this - it had a nice symmetry. I can just about remember how intense affairs of the heart are and that love is not always a two way flow. (i'm joking - these memories can last a lifetime!)
This is very good work - my own preference is when it is kept simple but true.
If you have time would you like to read my poem 'Serendib' (based on a real story told to my daughter in Sri lanka)
Thanks, Alan

[Benita Paloja]

Will do! Thank you!

[MAC]

very powerful...tis has a directness to it yet displays plenty creativity. a write from strength not weakness. excellent!

[Echoes of Eros]

You paint this scene with such haunted hues; darkness lingering where light once lay. It makes the heart ache to sense all that happened in the course of loving, and the course of letting go. xo

[Benita Paloja]

Thanks for the review :)

[wordman]

it seems this a way of life in this modern age.and it is a shame,you wrote it as so elegant

[Jamestown]

This sarcasm in this write is fantastic! I enjoyed every word. Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[Relic]

This has the feeling--besides bitterness and hurt--that there was something there so strong and sure but he destroyed it all. I like the last line a lot. "I forgive myself and move on....It has strength and shows you learned from a bad experience. Love is not always fair and it can kill a part of someone, but being able to move on despite the torturous pain is the right move.

Good one Benita.

[Relic]

Didn't even realize I reviewed this already. haha, see, I really did like it. :-)

[Benita Paloja]

We change the most when we get our hearts broken. Thank you! Means alot! :)

[Relic]

You're welcome.

[Anonymous -]

Let's have a toast for the douchebags,
Let's have a toast for the a******s,
Let's have a toast for the scumbags,
Every one of them that I know
Let's have a toast to the jerkoffs
That'll never take work off
Baby, I got a plan
Run away fast as you can

I dunno why , reminded of that , I really liked your poem , could visualize exactly what you were writing

[Benita Paloja]

hahaha i thought of that when i wrote this too!

[Anonymous -]

Yeezus works in wonderous ways .... Hahahaha

[Benita Paloja]

Yeezy taught me ;) hahaha

[Anonymous -]

Haha , well he's doing something right. Haha