I'm not Allowed to Cry

This is pretty sad. That's why I rated it teen.

I’m not allowed to cry.
All the tears are held up inside,
I have to hide it.
As I try to fight it
I only grow weaker.
It hurts to know that
I’m not allowed to cry.

 
No matter what they do
I will not bow to them.
I’m not allowed to cry
Just because I feel bad.
That’s no excuse.

 
All the tears held up inside
Could fill the greatest pit.
All I know is, as I don’t cry
I constantly worry what
Will happen to everything around me.

 
Can they see inside
That the bottle is about
To overflow?
I’m not allowed to cry
Just because everyone is
Worse off then me.

 
My Dad has Health issues.
My mom works all day long.
My grandparents are
Getting on in years.
There’s people who
Don’t even have parents or
A home or a family.

 
I will never feel sorry for myself.
I will never cry.
When I injure myself, or
When someone does it for me,
I will hold my heads up high, because
I’m not allowed to cry.

 
I’m not allowed to cry.
I’m not allowed to cry.
I’m not allowed to cry.
I will not cry.
Tears will never again fall down my face.

I’ll never show my pain.
It will stay locked up
Despite the consequences,
Despite if it hurts me more.
I’ll never show my feelings again, or
Try to anyway.

No.
No.
No!
I will never show my pain.

 
There are plenty of people
who have it worse off.
I’ll be ok if
I never show how
Sentimental I am.

I will overcome this disease
On my own.
No one will
Ever help me, because
I’m not allowed to cry.

 
I’m not allowed to feel or
Even be sentimental
Which is my whole being.
The pain and the pleasure
I’ll give up both just, because
Everyone has it worse off:
The preps,
The geeks,
The nerds,
The goths,
The emos,
The others;

everyone.

So I have decided
I’m not allowed to cry.
I’m not allowed to feel.
I’m not allowed anything.

My Dad has cancer.
My Mom has to always work.
My deepest thoughts and feelings
No one is ready for
So I’ll hide those too.

 
The world is a roller coaster ride.
Everything’s upside down,
Right side up,
And everything in-between.

I’m not allowed to cry.
I’m not allowed to cry.
I’m not allowed to cry.
I’m not allowed to cry.
I won't cry! 

If this poem makes no sense
Then I will hide these too.
I write dark, but that
Doesn’t mean I’m Emo or
Bad or Satanist or evil.

I’m just me so call me what you want, but
You will never understand life or me.
You’ll never achieve life
If you don’t look
Through children's eyes, but
That’s my opinion.
If you don’t like it,
I’ll hide them too.

Don’t make me crawl
Back into my old shell.
It’s a cold and cramped
Oh so lonely of a place.
Don’t make me hide and
You never-go " seek.

 
Don’t make me hide in
A disguise that will never
Come off of me.
I must remember
I’m not allowed to cry.
I’m not allowed to feel.
I’m not allowed anything.

 
My deepest thoughts and feelings
No one is ready for
So I’ll hide those too.
I’m not allowed to cry.
All the tears are held up inside.
As I try to fight it,
I only grow weaker.

 
It hurts to know that
I’m not allowed to cry.
No matter what they do
I will not bow to them.
I’m not allowed to cry,
Just because I feel bad.
That’s certainly no excuse.

 
All the tears held up inside
Could fill the greatest pit.
All I know is, as I don’t cry
I constantly worry what
Will happen to everything around me.
Can they see inside
That the bottle is about
To overflow?

 
I’m not allowed to cry,
Just because everyone is
Worse off then me.
That’s fair.
That’s justice.
That’s equivalent exchange.
Isn’t it?

Reviews

[Tina Kline]

It's okay to cry, no matter if your a boy or girl, man or woman. Everyone
needs to get the pain out. You'll get sick, very sick, if you never let
the pain out. Just do it in a safe place with safe people! Great poem!
Very emotional and very powerful! You have lots of reasons to cry,
no one's problems are worse or more important than others, pain is
pain. It isn't right the world thinks just as you put it in your poem.
You captured the whole problem well about people thinking everyone should
keep the pain inside. Where is the compassion in the world?

Great poem!

Tina

[Wolfwind Words]

This was a sad but beautiful journey through a view of life, that many people turn a blind eye to.
You filled every idea with imagery that brought it close to home to the readers.

I enjoyed it very much.
One suggestion. Try breaking it up a bit. Would flow much better.

Infinity's Shadow

[Berserker[Diktator Von ..]

you can cry to me..its okay..=) i loved it as usual..need I say more...=)

[BenightedWhispers]

Awee thank you very much Mariana.

[Mariana]

this is.........................
the best poem I HAVE READ!!!
I give you 100 stars if i could in this writing!
KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK..
very well writting btw

[BenightedWhispers]

Thank you both very much. ^.^

[Lazzz is twisessed]

That... was.. awesome! Oh my god. I loved it! My friend 666isdisturbed would love it... oh.... she already reviewed... haha!! ok. I am good. lol. but yeah. This is a very good poem. Keep writing

[The Morbid The Merrier]

f*****g rocks. very dark, angst, my type of poem. i really like it

[Janice Ann]

Oh Goodness you are right this was extremely sad! And it really hurt my heart but the reason I felt is so deep is I know the pain of feeling as if tears were not allowed. This is powerful and I am so thankful you shared!

Rock on!
Janice Ann