Daydreaming

The sun finally came up.

1) the darkness is gone

2) dancing with faith (with; Paul Tait)

3)  river Charlotte

4) the getaway

5) road to NY

6) daydreamin

7) shrine (interlude)

8) little black dress

9) evening at Macy's

10) fairy tale

11) real friends

12) clean (with; Paul Tait)

13) medicine

14) new year's eve

The darkness is gone

You say you can’t see that I’m done,

Here’s the way the darkness has gone,

 

I guess I’m the bad guy, I hurt them, oopsie,

So now when you attack me, I can fight back,

But I can play the good guy, and love them, honey,

You can try and smack me, but I’m having a comeback,

 

You keep on coming for me,

I know what you wanted to see,

You want to see my fake epiphany,

This time it’s gone, the darkness didn’t touch me,

 

They all smile and worship me at night,

Bow down like I am the embodied Christ,

They trust me like I am leading their heist,

Under the cover of a dark midnight,

 

They love it how I can charm them,

One comes one goes, it’s soon over again,

I got tied up in the romances, tied like a chain,

It strikes ten at Big Ben, the darkness is gone again,

 

I hope the way you can see the way I’m so done,

You better believe the darkness is gone.

 

Dancing with Faith (With; Paul Tait)

I charm them until I can drop them,

And I played with their heartstrings,

I mess with them until I’m fed up of them,

But your love can give me more than theirs could bring…

 

I think of you, I can never seem to sleep,

But I lay on my pillow and constantly weep,

No idea what it is, but I’ve done something deep,

I guess I failed the final leap of faith,

 

Stood alone, dancing with you in my head,

I dream of you, carve your initials on my bed,

I’m tripping over my two left feet,

There’re too many people I’m trying to beat,

It’s only you that I want to keep,

What am I doing wrong…

 

I think of you, I can never seem to sleep,

But I lay on my pillow and constantly weep,

No idea what it is, but I’ve done something deep,

I guess I failed the final leap of faith,

 

I wish you would wait and give me a chance,

Just for once, for a change,

All I get is a glance when you look up from your trance,

Please give it a rest, I guess you were just like the rest,

Babe, you were just like the rest…

 

River Charlotte

Stood there with everyone, but I feel alone,

Because every single one of you turned me stone cold,

One by one you blackened my soul…

 

After all the seamless storms, the lightning strikes,

Tell myself I’m not going back to the black Nikes,

This time I see them stood there, a golden dress,

Like a crying warrant for my arrest,

And I have not a single care left…

 

So it’s in my blood, it’s in my veins,

Runs cold through my head,

Washes sins, tragedies and all the pains,

Away to the fallen graves of the dead,

It flows down the river of harlots, the River Charlotte,

And it calls out the name of a broken harlot,

 

They play little games and tell you you’re perfect,

Mess with your head until you’re perplexed,

This time I won’t fight back to you,

It’s just a question of those left and then who,

Will stay and fight with you, and see it through…

 

So it’s in my blood, it’s in my veins,

Runs cold through my head,

Washes sins, tragedies and all the pains,

Away to the fallen graves of the dead,

It flows down the river of harlots, the River Charlotte,

And it calls out the name of a broken harlot.

The getaway

I lived life like it was a jazz song,

The road to safety was dusty and long,

But now I could fight a million soldiers,

The soldiers that protect happiness’s barriers,

And the cars that sped along the highways,

Helped me in my strongest getaway,

 

I’m looking at you from the bottom of the stairs,

I know what I did to you was unfair,

But now I can dance like no one’s watching,

Because no one’s point clocking,

And when I crumbled down this time,

I could secretly and quietly become fine,

 

He needed to be washed clean in a shower,

A downpour of the scents of flowers,

But through everything he didn’t cower,

No one could hold that kind of power,

 

I threw the coins in the wishing well,

I wished I’d be free to talk of the tale and tell,

Of how I played host to the great getaway,

The getaway from a measly tormenting place,

Where darkness reigned supreme,

But finally, I stand on the beach free and clean.

 

Road to NY

Speckles of time flash before your eyes,

As the world around you begins to die,

He discovered the art of rebuilding yourself,

Of cementing the cracks of himself,

It all happened on the road to NY,

 

I’d choose the skyscrapers over rivers,

The long hot days over our shivery winters,

And they’d watch as the moonlight shone me away,

The way the bright city lights would make me stay,

It began with the drive on the highway to New York City,

 

Busy highways and the long drive away,

I’d been built up to fall back down,

This time I take control, turn to a smile from a frown,

I move on, I move on up, I don’t want to play,

I’m here to stay.

 

The forgotten pieces of my life,

Were all rebuilt in one night.

 

I’d choose the city centre over roses and bluebells,

Pick it over the rainstorms and seashells,

You’d watch as the tide came in and swept me away,

Like a love that would make my heart sway,

The drive along the highway to New York City.

Daydreamin

I died from your love,

My friends kept me up,

I was reborn from your love,

My life went into a blow up,

I’ve got to stop daydreaming,

To see the real thing…

 

You were my everything,

Your loving was amazing,

You looked incredible,

Your brown eyes were beautiful,

You could’ve been my dream,

You could’ve been on my team,

 

You wanted a change,

It shouldn’t seem strange,

You turned soulless,

And turned me spineless,

You turned into your worst nightmare,

Left my heart broken and bare,

 

Maybe I was daydreaming,

Baby it could have been a fling,

Baby it could be my dream thing,

I guess we’ll never know,

Maybe it’s best if you say bye and go.

Shrine (interlude)

You were my sweetener,

My hypnotist, making me fall deeper,

For you, I guess I’d have been a keeper,

You were my new lover, my interlude.

 

You were my lifeline,

My every minute, my all the time,

For you, I would have built a shrine,

You were my break in time, my interlude.

 

Little black dress

Tell yourself she’s just the girl in the little black dress,

But she’s the one who never made a mess of things,

No matter how many stings she received,

She was always perceived as perfect,

She’s covering up her own lies, before she dies,

 

She’s talking about the girl with the broken face,

The boy who’s hurting in the darkest place,

The teacher who almost got fired,

The guy who’s fed up and tired,

She’s covering up her own lies, before she dies,

 

They all put on a country song and dance,

Dance and give life a chance,

They’re not stuck in a popularity trance,

Where they stand in their little black dress,

And bandage up their shattered mess,

 

Sitting on the stone-cold kitchen floor,

Eating cornflakes and drinking milkshake,

They wait for mum to come through the door,

So they can rebuild their broken flakes,

 

She’s stood there in her little black number,

Looks like she’s ready for slumber,

Looking like she’s going to trash some hearts,

I guess she already made a head start,

 

Every single shadow in the dark,

And every single atom that composed me,

Made your hate seem bearable in the dark,

But I wrote this for every he and she,

That you damaged in your little black dress,

While you hid your own mess.

Evening at Macy’s

I’m playing every day, every moment over in my mind,

I realised every worry, it had to be put behind,

It’s like a game of snakes and ladders,

You forget one, climb one and feel bad,

And slowly you realise it doesn’t need to be racy,

It can be a simple evening at Macy’s.

 

It could have been us,

It could have been the start,

It could have been the night,

You could have put up a fight,

It could have been us...

 

I want to walk the streets alone,

Forget the grasping smell of your cologne,

Get rid of the pain you made me own,

And the love I eventually had to disown,

And slowly you realise it doesn’t need to be racy,

It can be a simple evening at Macy’s.

 

It could have been us,

It could have been the truth,

It could have been the love,

You could have hidden us in a cove,

It could have been us...

 

But now I realise it doesn’t need to be racy,

It can be a simple evening alone at Macy’s.

 

Fairy tale

When he vanished into the lost lagoons,

He learnt how to fight wild fairy tale dragons,

And he learnt how to pull a weighed down wagon,

He learnt relationships meant nothing,

Yet friendships mean everything,

 

Burning me up until it’s too late,

Another flame struck date,

Just say you have a crush on me,

You’re not here to crush a perfect dream,

The skies were a stormy grey pale,

A reflection of our broken fairy tale,

 

When he hid and didn’t want to be around,

He learnt not to get a high when you’re down,

And he learnt to love in a lost town,

He learnt he didn’t want them to run back,

As he’d learnt to walk down his own track,

 

Burning me up until it’s too late,

Another flame struck date,

Please say for once you fancy me,

And you don’t fancy breaking me,

It was as if everything around us was to fail,

A mirroring of our shattered fairy tale,

 

He can smell the burnt grass and flowers,

In a pickup truck that drove past the clock tower,

Wondering why he loves if it never lasts,

Because every attempt at a fairy tale ends fast.

Real friends

You were my saving grace,

In the darkness, my brace,

You were my real friends,

The ones who made amends,

You were my blue skies,

Shining when part of me died,

 

You crafted the hole in my soul,

Carved it back into a whole,

Stood by me through shipwrecks,

Cleared up my flooded decks,

 

You held me up when I wasn’t successful,

And reminded me I could be special,

Taped up my heart when I was restless,

Picked me up when I was breathless,

 

You said, where you’re stood isn’t where you’ve walked,

And when you feel love, we will show our support,

My real friends, my support to the end,

 

This is my thank you note,

To those who fixed me when I broke,

Those that kept me afloat,

You were my saving grace,

In the darkness, my brace,

 

You were my real friends,

The ones who made amends,

You were my blue skies,

Shining when part of me died,

You were my real friends.

 

Clean (With; Paul Tait)

Need someone here, to tell me it’ll be alright,

But those people are hard to come by,

Ever since you walked into my life,

 

I’ve been thinking it over, I’ve been daydreaming,

Dreaming of your eyes, gleaming,

But it’s time to open my eyes,

Open my eyes to bright blue skies,

I’m truly free of you, I’m clean,

 

Ever since you’ve left I’ve been feeling depressed,

Feeling like if I tell anyone I’ll be oppressed,

Stop acting like this is a contest,

And I love being on my own,

But it gets boring, being alone,

And I don’t know what to say to you,

 

I’ve been thinking it over, I’ve been daydreaming,

Dreaming of your eyes, gleaming,

But it’s time to open my eyes,

Open my eyes to bright blue skies,

I’m truly free of you, I’m clean,

 

But I know we have to move on,

And you’re nervous about what’s to come,

I assure you, it’ll be fun, I’m sorry, I had to run, I’m done,

 

I walk into the bathroom,

Forget the loom of my doom,

Realise I’m okay,

Bathe and say,

It’s cold, it’s blue, it’s who,

Helped you make it through.

Medicine

Small town, big talk,

People wait, for you to go pale,

For you to become frail,

So I pray to the Holy Grail,

You stay even when I fail,

 

Darkness, long may it reign,

And reign will it do,

Friends, they come and go,

And they go like the wind,

Away they blow,

 

You’re my penicillin,

My hour of need shilling,

My go to, every single minute,

You’re my sweetening medicine,

 

Love, long may it last,

And last may it be,

Friends, they come with the rain,

And then go with your pain,

Like the pain, may they feign,

 

Small town, big talk,

People wait, for you to go pale,

For you to become frail,

So I pray to the Holy Grail,

You stay even when I fail.

 

New Year’s Eve

Sitting in the car and singing noughties songs,

I look over at you, I think of all your wrongs,

I realise all we had was all we will ever be,

You’ll always love them more than you’ll ever love me,

And it’ll happen again next New Year’s Eve,

 

The groups that would pick you last,

The people that haunt you from your past,

Each and every one of them is just a phantom,

Haunting you in the darkness and holding a lantern,

To lure you in and bring back your demons,

 

The lover that was waiting on the corner,

Thinking what excuse you could make to stay longer,

Only for each relationship to go down the drain,

They would rip you of any thought that was sane,

Because you were loving them with your eyes closed,

 

The friends that would make up lies each day,

The people who didn’t give you back what they were to pay,

Which made you forever wondering,

How they got away with their plundering,

Was it that you were too naïve for life,

 

Remember that you’ll never get your winnings,

But there are always new beginnings,

And there’s no time to grieve,

It all starts again on New Year’s Eve.

 

 

Author's Note

Thank you (for everything) :)