ardentualectually

What you've seen to

what you call you've decided on

what is certain

what is taken for granted and presumed

what is permeant

you wanted only to be unmovable

wanted to be respected by knowing it all

only to be witty and knowledgeable enough

wanted to not be impressable, not be influenceable

and you've got that which you've prioritize now

who could force you to tear out the heart of what and how you operate now

your construct and the configuration mental

match the real world, construct out there up with what you think it is

recategorized recatalogue all you think of everything, or at least tease around the notion thereof

humor indulge it oblige it just a bit

Just enough, and then the living can commence, the dancing, the loving, the wondering and friends

and bbqs and fishing

Then, soon, the joy, the happiness, the hope

Then, the re-opened door of wonder intellectual weight loss challenge

battling like the dickinson's shelly's nietzsche's woolf's, seneca's epictetus's montaigne's 

with strong arms, with awe at the amazingness of the prospect and of beautiful and of the most discoverable, locatable intelligence, become the worlds strongest person,

But someday, that might not seem all that worth it. 

So what else is there to do, 

live the best life

forgive yourself for everything you're able, you've already done, and don't forgive yourself for any single thing in the future, remain vigilant,

but not too much so that you don't live today jimi style

time goes by, and how did i manage my time

surely half or nearly the whole world is a scam

i give my time for money, and my money sometimes for more time,

I cant account for why, or what i spend all the rest on even

But i know what i want, and i know what feels right

I know that learning requires humbleness, because it requires some self-doubt or open-mindedness to errors and corrections that don't always come pleasantly and welcomely,

it is like this because the mental life requires sincerity,

and wisdom also, however, requires laughing at this very notion,as well.   

So, haha