Black Tears

I listened through closed doors

I waited

I saw through the clear windows

I turned away

I know things I shouldn't 

I hid my face in my knees

I cried and no one knew why

tried 

Days and years went by

My nights got longer

My sleep got shorter

And still I cried only one person knew why

Through pain I feel

I heard and seen, and no one knew

I tried to change 

To be better, be liked by others

Prettier, smarter, funnier

Is what they all wanted 

And I couldn't give

I cried because I was lost

I cried because I was confused 

I cried because everyone wanted me to be perfect 

I cried because you said you loved me but didn't 

I cried because I was lonely

I cried because I was Scared

But only one person knew why

Me, because no one believed

That I was strong enough to survive

Because they all wanted more than I could give

So I cried, alone in my room

Till the tears were no more