Words Unspoken

I want to write

To put this pen on paper and make the words that I cannot let escape my mouth

Things I dare not say out loud

In public

In private

In company of friends

Or when I am alone to my self

 

I want to speak

To let out all these feeling and thoughts and concerns that fuels my every day

All of these worries that I cannot run away from

All of these fears that have torn me

And scarred me

And forced those who were closest

Away

 

I want to sing

To just forget this world and these fears and this worry and this life

Let my mind relax and spin

Close my eyes that have seen too much

And yet not enough to be satisfied

To die

 

I want to scream

To let someone else know my pain and my anger and to not hold it back anymore

All of my regrets that corrupt me

All of my tears that tear me down

And hide me

And kill me

To let it all out

 

I want to breathe

To finally let this breath out that I have been holding in for so long

To feel the release of this stress

To be able to breathe in the new

And the clean

And the joy

Of life

 

I want to jump

To fly away in the sky and run away from everything that holds me back

To be myself without the fear

Or the lies or the scams

Of friendship

And love

And hope

 

I want to trust

To have faith in myself and my future and this world and this life

To not have to cry myself to sleep

Out of fear or frustration

From me

Myself

And I

 

I want to live

To see the world for what it really is and how it should be and what it could be

But how can I do that when

I sit here on the ground not able to move

And cry

And scream

Again

 

I want to read

To escape into someone else’s world and see that I am not the only one

Who has to go through a battle every day

Just to live and be excepted for who I am

When who I am

No one

Will every really know.

Reviews

[Paul Bell]

I think the title sums it up perfectly. How many times have we walked away from a situation, and then thought to ourselves, this is what I should have said. Great write.