That Four Letter Word

I have always wanted to be someone who makes a difference in the world. To be a role model for other generations. To have millions of people say my name.
What's stopping me?
FEAR.
The number one dream crusher. Who would have thought a four letter word could be so powerful, yet in so many different ways.
I have a fear of anxiety.
Being one who has anxiety and fears it will take over ....well takes over.
I don't think I would have such bad anxiety if i didn't fear it would appear every second of the day. Knowing how a panic attack feels.....knowing I could be trapped in my fear..terrifies me.
Don't you wish you could talk to a million people and not feel one twitch of anxiousness.
My dream is to not fear what is become of me. I will always have anxiety.
But to what extent?
If i don't fear it it wouldn't be as overpowering.
If I live in my fear forever i will always be writing behind a wall of cement that holds me back.
FEAR.
Ya that word.
Fear latches on to peoples lives like a leech. There is no getting rid of it. But there is a way to live with it and not live in it.

Reviews

[Glen Yumang Manese]

Fear is but fear itself...they say...yet fear is what you make it be...since fear is you...not a devil or a villain...it's a manifestation of self...only you have to take it out of your mind...and begin to start living...I believe any one would have anxiety talking to a million people all at once...that's a big audience...yet if you are prepared --- the challenge in put forth...it does not matter if it was a billion people...and so on...the way you wrote this --- seems venting your emotions...about your fear...and I see why you put it as a story instead of a poem...

[Shekinah2015]

Oh, that anxiety. So many people struggle with it. You described it really well and in few words. I really enjoyed the read!

[luvs2write]

I really liked this, you described it perfectly. I'm having a lot of trouble with anxiety. It makes us into people that we don't want to be.

[MomzillaNC]

To stand unafraid? I don't think that's the point. To overcome the fear and keep moving forward… that's the goal. Fear can cripple, but it can also push us ever forward. It's like a great, snarling beast, waiting to trample us. Don't be afraid of fear. Jump on, hold tight, and ride that bucking beast wherever it leads you.

[Brittany Evans]

Thank you for the encouragement and review!

[MomzillaNC]

You're welcome, and God speed.

[Coyote Poetry]

Hard to stand unafraid. One of my favorite writers (Dryden) wrote. Write the truth with conviction and honesty. Don't become a martyr. A dead writer cannot help anyone. Fear is a bad thing. Better to be fearless than watch the world fall apart. A very good story. You open the door for a long conversation with many answers. Thank you for sharing the story.
Coyote