The InspectorA Chapter by BeethovenFellerThe story begins on an existential note; an Inspector stands on a platform trying to quell the restless nature, which always seems to afflict him, while he waits for his train to arrive. Despite the Inspector’s recent
arrival he felt he’d been waiting there for long enough; by now he’d checked his
broken watch more than once and their unmoving hands purported he’d missed his
train by five hours. But it was still the early morning�"perhaps seven or eight
o clock, and he was still viewing the distance for the approach of the train;
he certainly hadn’t been standing idly about all this time, though he’d
originally sought refuge in the seating area on the platform before an invasive
restlessness brought him to where he now stood. Yet
his vantage offered him no relief. The impatient feeling returned and he tried
to disperse it by drumming his fingers on his briefcase, though careful not to
attract the annoyance of those nearby. Eventually the unceasing stillness of
the extremity of the track dampened his interest and he turned his attention to
the weather, but that likewise offered little solace. Yes, a brilliant blue sky
of tender blue loomed happily above him, a cheerful sun smiled down, but it was
inadequate to still that feeling within; the Inspector’s troublesome
constitution was more complex. He
turned his attention to the wind, which tugged on his grey suit, creasing his
white blazer -- a yearning sigh pulling at his black tie. He noticed a thin
line of trees on the other side of the track. Behind them, the panorama of a
clear sky �" a valley law below. The wind seemed to be calling him there, and he
felt the stifled sensation of inaction and the unbearable wait of patience come
from within, yearning him to see what lay on that other, greener side. Perhaps
it would console his restless fever. Certainly
he couldn’t stomach the thought of going back where he’d been, and wasn’t there
a dignity to surveying views such as these? He glanced along the breath of the
track and spotted an overpass further down. Again, the inertia of doubt
assailed him, and the sweet voice of that little adventure called to him �" on a
whim he decided to set off, wondering what lay on the greener side of the
track. Approaching the gathering of
trees on the other side, he stepped from the concrete onto the grass to get a
better look. Before him a great forest of uncivilised tress stretched out in
the distance, with a gleaming river wandering in the midst. Here, at last, lay
a place unspoiled. How captivated he was by that endless verdant expanse! Some
deeper feeling was stirred �" a sense of freedom that promised relief from the
tedium of the everyday act. Here was a sight whose essence was untainted and
inspiring in its simplicity �" but probably too, it was a ridiculous thing to
feel; his mind seemed to clamour “Get back to work or you’ll miss your train!” To
his right a little excursion was offered by a dirt path, an accompanying sign
detailed the forest �" immediately he was awash in a strange sensation; he felt
perhaps the wonder once offered had since lost its splendour �" this place was
already charted; his captivation receded into gentle indifference, and fearing
his train would arrive soon, he turned away. Back
on the track, frustration waited for him; a man in a dark-grey suit had taken
the Inspector’s seat. He too, was glancing at his watch, tapping his leg
impatiently, drumming his fingers on his briefcase. A state of immeasurable
agitation: the train was late. Just now he articulated his forearm in a swift
and defined motion, sighing; the watch before him decided his fate, and an
austere and orderly disposition struggled against its clear impatience. Nearby an elderly lady sat
staring peaceably into the opposing treeline. Her impatience was less obvious;
perhaps the distracted day dreaming was a symptom. The
Inspector was not so particular in his assessment about this collection of
people. Again his habit of noticing their distinctions came from restless
impatience, as did everything else. Over there in the station
building where he’d purchased his ticket, someone strolled out. The Inspector
recalled the map on the wall in the waiting room. Initially he’d spared it only
a glance but a closer view was warranted in light of recent developments �" or
the lack thereof. He wandered inside and found a woman housed in a ticket booth.
Distracted, she idled away, with a pen at times, tapping it against her cheek,
and here and there checking boxes on a sheet of paper. The Inspector observed the map
on the wall which detailed the train destinations in the area. He gladly spent
some time searching for his destination; nested in the corner was a little
metal slab that read: “The Company,” in stylish print. What was strange
was that this destination wasn’t printed on the map, the metal slab had been
added belatedly; what this meant, he didn’t know. He knew very little about
this Company in any case, but he’d inspected so many companies before that he
thought nothing of it. Outside
again, waiting for the train. By now the novelty of the station had been erased
by his searching; he’d seen everything and he felt a stationary boredom. The
train would arrive soon. Presently, someone new appeared, a comely woman with
an inviting attitude about her, but the Inspector couldn’t stomach much
conversation. They were too slow and frustrated him. There were places he
needed to be, he thought, as he stood waiting for his train. And yet the train
still didn’t come, and he was still waiting. And she was waiting too. And he
glanced at his watch again. There
was something in the air. He heard the train coming. He looked at the tracks,
with the oceans of gravel beneath them. Yes, the train was coming, and then
they’d have to line up. Perhaps no one else was getting on the train. He
glanced over to the people sitting and noticed the man in the dark-grey suit
was getting up, heaving a sigh, and shaking his head: this whole train business
was a ridiculous waste of time; he nevertheless seemed somewhat relieved. The
Inspector stepped aboard as he took a look at his ticket. The train seemed old
fashioned, consisting of isolated compartment rooms. It was empty. The number
on his ticket guided him to the correct compartment and he settled himself
inside, placing his briefcase, which contained his inspection protocols and
other necessary items, on the netting above his seat. Again the tortures of
waiting; the train had to stall the customary amount of time before moving on.
Nevertheless he felt content some progress has been made, however small. In
the moments of lull, the Inspector’s watched the reflection of himself in the
window, and his attention wandered into a reverie from the Friday evening
before. He
remembered vividly the warm breath of the dimly lit dark-oak office. He’d
been sitting on an old armchair, watching the flames of the fire jump and
dance, hypnotizing him, while the Chief Inspector sat behind his desk discussing
loudly into his telephone, “Yes, yes! I know, I know, but you can’t just …
well, really, …. No, no, well you would say that, wouldn’t you? -- forget it!
forget it!” With a loud thump he threw down the telephone onto the receiver and
stood up with a heavy sigh. He began to shift his portly frame around his
mahogany desk. “I don’t understand
these people anymore,” said the Chief Inspector, the sweat on his temples
glistened as he entered the glare of the fire, “Things aren’t like they used to
be.” He lifted a glass of brandy from the fireside table, and took a sip from
it. He made a subtle motion towards the Inspector with his chalice and asked:
“What do you think? Have I lost my wits? Am I too old? It was someone different
this time, not her from before, you know? She’s retired…. And this new person…
there’s something missing…no flexibility! No, too official…” he too another
sip. The Inspector’s
voice caught in his throat; his attention still consumed by the fire: “I don’t
know much about how things used to be.” “You’ll know soon
enough.” The Chief Inspector
walked over to his trophy cabinet. “Yes, you’ll know soon enough… Y’know how
long it’s been since I’ve won anything?” he asked, in a dissatisfied tone. A
moment of reverie gripped him. He hammered on his stomach and shook his head as
discontent stirred within, “I was told to lay off the brandy, but it must be
something else… because things aren’t the same as they used to be �" don’t you
think?” The Inspector made
to make his crude mantra regarding him not having experienced the past and
hence having no thoughts on it, but the Chief Inspector carried on; he was very obtuse, fond of soliloquys, “When
I was a young, …” he began. The flames fire danced wildly,
emanated a sense of comforting warmth. What was it in the fire that drew his
attention? He stopped listening to everything else; he couldn’t draw his eyes
away because he felt like a scared reasoning was trying to reveal itself in all
that chaos �" insurmountable, endless chaos… …. “Old age gets you!
It really does! Creeps up on you. Yes, fifty years now, middle-aged,
apparently.” …. The Inspector
began to wonder what the fire meant to him, this obsession -- he was a very
ordered man. There was something in the way… Things were ordered in a way that
didn’t work -- Yes, that was it! “Now, let’s get
back to the kernel of the matter,” interrupted the Chief Inspector with
finality, “This new model company. Well, I suppose it’s one of those things. You
know I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard those same few words thrown
together �" “a new company”? How can you call some new in this day and age? But
they say,” and the Chief Inspector leaned close �" he’d since sat himself down
beside the Inspector, near the fireplace, “They say that it’s a Company of the Future…
at least that’s what an old buddy has told me…” the Chief Inspector chuckled,
and continued: “A sense of finality to it, don’t you think? The final nail in
the coffin?” The
Inspector’s attention was suddenly seized, the fire drew away from him and he
looked intently at the Chief Inspector, “What do you mean? It’s all talk. Always
has been. A new coat of paint is all it is.” The Chief Inspector
drew back, a look of sobriety returned to his face, “Yes, I know. But there’s
something strange about it this time. There always is with these things that’ve
never been done before. And I know I’m inclined to mumble on a bit, yes I know
very well. But I also know quite a bit about companies because I’ve been
inspecting them my whole life. I’ll tell you this, I’ve grown sick and tired of
novelty, it’s just a gimmick nowadays… But sometimes a new ship arrives, larger
than the rest, from some part of the world we’ve forgotten about. And it’s like
the silent fascination of a deep sleep captures you. Sometimes something comes
from outside this never-ending parade of progress.” He got up again, and
removed himself from the glare of the fire, “How much easier would it be to
just do away with it all? Why not nail everything down, and content ourselves
with dreams of progress? Maybe, that’s all nonsense. I’m an old fool you know.”
Abruptly, his
fascination faded, “Oh well,” he said at last, loudly, “I guess we’ll see soon
enough what it’s all about. But keep your wits about you in any case, my good
Inspector.” “What do you
mean?” “Well, of course I
mean to send you to this Company … I would go myself but these new companies
are odd and demand a lot of energy which I just don’t have anymore. Why, they
say it’s a company of the future! And it’ll be of better use to you than it
would be to me --and hear this, this desk right here,” the Chief Inspector
knocked his knuckles on the hard mahogany of the desk he was so fond of: “One
day this’ll be yours. This isn’t some new thing which you can discard, this desk,
it’s something you can pass on. This was here even before I arrived… listen
Inspector, we’re all counting on you here. The firm will need someone like you.
You’ve already shown your merit, just a bit of time and before you know it, you’ll
be the chief inspector…” before long, the Chief Inspector returned to his
habitual soliloquy: “…There’s a kind of intimacy with life I’ve lost, it’s all
very distant from me…” With
a lurch the train awoke and stirred into motion. The reverie collapsed like a
dream and at the same moment the compartment door flew open. A
figure in the doorway watched the Inspector with a gesturing huff of annoyance;
The man in the dark-grey suit proceeded to seat himself, anxiously clutching
his briefcase in his lap, drumming his fingers while the Inspector strained to
place his attention elsewhere. But no thread of thought could distract him. He
spared an occasional glance, hoping to catch the stranger’s eye so as to
intimate his grief at this intrusive habit, but this served only to further strain
the attention of the agitated Inspector, who was beginning to feel hopelessly
trapped as the train began to roll forward. He
watched out the window and saw everything was changing so fast that things
ceased to change and instead merged into a static blur. Once more that restless
feeling began to stir. © 2023 BeethovenFellerAuthor's Note
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2 Reviews Added on April 26, 2023 Last Updated on April 26, 2023 AuthorBeethovenFellerGalway, Galway, IrelandAboutWriting for three years. From Ireland. Twenty Two years young. more..Writing
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