WORSE

I'm sorry I can't be the girl to forever be with you

I'm sorry
that I tore you to shreds
That I traumatized you
That I didn't even realize it

I'm sorry
For making you afraid
For making you feel guilty
For manipulating you to my liking

I'm sorry
I couldn't have been better
I couldn't have changed
I didn't fix it sooner

I'm sorry
You cried yourself to sleep
You had to watch me fall from grace
You couldn't help me like you wanted to

I'm sorry
That you think this is your fault
That you wished you could change me
That you ever had to deal with me

I'm sorry
You can't believe I love you
You can't stand the way I look at you,
With love in my eyes

I'm sorry
I don't know how to tell you what's wrong
I show you my lies to try and let you in
I'm afraid to lose you again even though you're not mine anymore

I'm sorry
For not being enough when it mattered
For causing us to fall apart
For not seeing how I hurt you, my love

I'm sorry
That I damaged you beyond repair
That I continue to demand a place in your life
That I'll never truly move on
That I won't ever trust again
That I won't truly love again
That I still love you
And that I always will