Mask Of Lies

First thing I've posted in a while now.

My eyes face down at the floor, tile by tile

My heart screams out to breach the problem, mile by mile

Holding onto the frayed sleeves, bracelets covering the lies

Hoping no one can see what's there, in my hurting eyes

I'm paranoid at the least, hurting in my heart

From all of those scars that have torn me apart

I look up, and now you're looking at me

Questioning look in your eyes, please, oh please don't see

I'm hiding this from you, don't ruin my disguise

My mask so perfect, after failing after so many tries

I don't want you to know, the monster I've became

The beast inside my body that I cannot tame

You walk closer to me, my grip tightens on my wrists

My hands are clenched up in anxious fists

Your expression says you want to know why

But I won't say anything, for help I will not cry

Now you're in front of me, sorrow upon your face

I'm back away trying to stay away from your steady pace

Guilty for what I've done, but I would do it again

I look up at him for a second, mind speaking pretend

Lying so flawless, there's no way he could see through it

He couldn't  see through what I wouldn't ever admit

He pulls me in a hug, "What is the look on your face for?"

I frown, "haven't you ever wondered what bracelets are for?"

That says it all, and I hide the tears springing in my eyes

You won't ever see through this hurting mask of lies

Author's Note

"I walked through the hallway holding my wrists, hoping no one will see me like this. He looks at me, scared what he'll find. He never thought I had these things in mind. He asks me, "...is there any more?" Looking at him with tears in my eyes I whisper a simple reply,...'ever wonder what bracelets were for'..?"

Reviews

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This was a good write. I loved the whole poem itself. The flow was amazing as well. It is one of my favorites written by you. I can relate to this poem as well. I know at times I have a mask full of lies. It's sad that people have to hide what they feel. I love this write. Thanks for sharing. :)

[rwar ish me]

very nice
I really like this
I can connect somwhat.
Very good work
~Amai