I've Called It Me

I’m so sick of this, sick of what I do

I give and give, I’m faithful and true

The perfect friend, I never ditch

Yet what am I, but a stupid b***h?

You take this soft side as a weakness

But I’ll tell you right now, dark unto bleakness

There’s more to me, than what you choose to see

I’m not actually there, this isn’t actually me

I only deal with this because I’m “nice”

But what you don’t know, is there’s a price

I can only take so much before I crumble

The beast inside me starting to rumble

It screams “Let me out! Let me be free!”

Yet I won’t listen, I’m trying not to be

This hideous apparition that lies within my heart

Is enough to tear the strongest of my friends apart

And of course they don’t know, I keep it inside

Hiding it away, with how many times I’ve lied

It’s just to protect them, that’s what I say

I tell myself every day that it will be okay

That I won’t lose my temper, I won’t do what’s on my mind

I’ll just pretend to be sweet, pretend to be kind

Ignore the burning rage that’s lying in wait within

It’s just a horrible thing, making that entire din

Between the voices, and screaming, and torture device

Telling me I need to hurt someone, giving misleading advice

But you’ll never see that, no, I won’t allow it

Because for you to see it, would push you away bit by bit

It’s ugly, untamed, and not for eyes to see

It’s just something I’ve named, I’ve called it Me

Author's Note

No real comment on this.

Reviews

[Dr. S. D. Blankenship D..]

Hm, 'I've Called It Me" By ~Bed Head~
Carries a better remorse to life and a gray felon to the sad 'pictures’ of life's other side'. Some human's have no aspect to grab in this type of life, so they overlook it, sometimes -- give it other names so they can be formula to understand. However, no one can completely understand how any-one-given person feels; though we are said to try, and even say we can. Each person feels, sees, smells, touches, and talks diversely. It's just, us, as human's try to be all the same, and we capture everything different. I know how you feel.

This story/poem, is freaking awesome!
~S. D. Blankenship

[Pi Cee]

I hope that's not them.

[A Red Red Rose 4 U Luv]

This is so true for many people, i love the way you chose to keep it to yourself and i can relate. There are times where bing 'nice' all the time can make people think there is no 'mean'. very well said. Thank you :)

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

I can relate to this as you said it's a dark piece. It was excellenty written. I loved it.

[caleb]

lol I read your bio and I know you don’t like people just saying "great job" and stuff like as reviews but great job! It was epic.

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Wow. I like when I can find stuff I can relate too, and this is amazing.