Bottle Of Pills

Lovely, just lovely.

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You don't tell me not to stand here

The bottle of pills in one hand

In the other hand I'd rather not say

Is this knife I can't stand to look at?

I grasp for hands that don't seem to reach

And hope for words that no one speaks

To save your soul from this horrible demise

To give you a loving heart, the best reprieve

I'm ready to jump, to fall, to crash

To burn inside, and all just for you

I'm willingly standing here in the pyre

So burn me if you will

I am no witch, no b***h, no curse, and no lie

I am what I am, and that's all I can be

I will not change, I will stay the same

If you'd like to change that, get out of my way

Becoming stronger, day by day

I fight the addictions that have been placed on my soul

Leave the razor, and the medication prescriptions

Find a place within yourself, and don't give in

Fight for what you are and know you are the best you can be

And that and only that can set you free

So I'll stand here holding this bottle of pills

Suicide note in the other hand, with a body of chills

I've past my time here, there's nothing you can do to stop me

Now I'll be strong, like I once said I was

Dropping that knife, and the medication pills

Lighting a flame to burn that suicide note

I shall not be cursed, or even be let down

You shant make me anything of your own creation

I am ME, only me, I won't take this bullshit anymore

And if you can't take me, for all that I am and will be

Then truly you aren't my friend, just a discarded memory

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Author's Note

I don't even remember writing this. It's my writing, but I don't recall when and why I wrote this.

Reviews

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I like the lines
"And if you can't take me, for all that I am and will be
Then truly you aren't my friend, just a discarded memory

Soooooooo know how to relate to this whole poem though...

[Q.Kennedy]

My favorite line:

"I am ME, only me, I won't take this bullshit anymore"

There's a lot of power in this, whether you remember writing it or not.