April Snow

A Poem by Rebecca Leigh

Words drip-
After silence;
With disdain and sarcasm,
But at least they drip forth from her sweet lips.
"Its snowing in April, the world is ending"

Foreshadowing....

"How are you?" I ask... genuinely wanting to know,
My soul launching forward,
Grasping air,
Just to hear her voice,
Even if it pierces like a sword.

"I'm fine" was her retort,
Not a real emotion...
"Fine" translates to "s****y but I'm not giving you that satisfaction."
She comes off cold and distant,
My heart overpowers my mind and I still try to knock down her fort.

The walls I try to scour and climb,
But with each word,
I fall down several meters.
I should take the sign,
But I am blinded by Shakespearean seers:

Two realities flash before my sight: First an outcome of harmony and
Loving synchronicity...
The second my heart shattered-
Leaving in disparity .

The first is my dream come true, a night terror gleans the latter,
Either way my life encompasses her. I didnt know love before, and she showed me every second what real unconditional love was like.

But because of the state of the world and me having more time than I need to think and over analyze subconsciously , I self sabotage,
The only good thing I am proud of.
The only accomplishment I ever felt like I deserved may be paralyzed,

When I was young I had a whole future,
Career based: the world was my Oyster,
Now as I grow older,
A loving family and partner,
Is my ideal.

And I see my ideal with her,
No one else I want,
Of that I am sure,
So I cant lose her to something as trivial,
As me misunderstanding,
And accidentally disappointing.

This is a line from a show but all too relevant,
"I would climb a thousand mountains for you"
Dan Levy wrote it,
And I cant think of a more beautiful phrase.
Except... for her I would climb a million more.

© 2020 Rebecca Leigh

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jacob erin-cilberto

wow this feels so much like my relationship with my sister...reaching out, the replies dripping with sarcasm...
mountains we can't seem to get over....frost in April...experiencing that in the last couple weeks.
already a physical distance that has become a further distance emotionally.
this is so well expressed in many ways.
j.