Looking Back

When you look back,

At everything you have ever done.

At everyone you encountered.

Does it seem like it's all far away?

Does it make you sad, like it does me?

Looking back, so much has changed.

Everyone I used to "know"

Have done something with their lives so far.

And where am I?

Still stuck in the same place.

So much, shifts through my mind.

All at once, one at time.

It seems to rotate around and around.

I honestly don't know what goes on anymore.

I get confused of my own thoughts.

I get confused on why people care.

On why everything I do,

Seems to fail compared to others.

Everyone I used to "know",

They're doing stuff already.

Making a difference.

Me? I'm still struggling.

Struggling with every little concept that passes.

Struggling to understand WHERE I belong.

Eventually, I'll figure it out.

But, eventually isn't soon enough.

Looking back, my life,

Is a big tunnel I don't want to remember sometimes.

I'm sure it's that way for many.

And I'm sure, as time goes on,

Everything will be different.

But at this present moment,

All I have going for me...

Is my family and my friends and my writing.

I just wish I knew how I could make a difference.

Looking back won't help me figure it out.

But I can't help,

But look back and think,

How did they from there to here,

And how do I get from here to where I need to be?

Looking back... 

I'm still a confused child, more than ever.

When you look back,

At everything that has passed.

Everyone that has come and gone.

Should you be proud? Or sad?