Forgive Me.

I don't expect you to take me back.

Just know, I'm sorry for all I've done.

You didn't deserve it,

And I don't deserve you.

I'm losing myself and it's not fair to you.

Why you love me,

That's a mystery to me

Because I can't see the good in myself.

I can't see what anyone sees in me.

I do love you, with all of my heart.

All the things I do,

I don't understand.

And I'm sorry that I keep putting you through all of this.

It's not fair that I can't love myself, 

Yet I think I'm deeply in love with you.

It may not seem like it.

But I do feel that way.

It's just me,

Trying to find myself again.

Trying to find the one you fell in love with.

I'm a heart breaker, or so it seems.

You can do so much better than me,

So why do you still choose me?

I'm not worth your trouble.

I'm not worth you going through all that pain

Because I somehow keep messing it up.

Keep pushing you away.

I keep failing.

Maybe it's because I can't love myself.

That I'm afraid of loving another.

That I'm afraid of someone loving me.

I am so deeply, truly sorry, for everything.

I don't expect you to take me back.

I never do.

But you do, every single time.

Why? What is so great about me?

I don't see it. 

Maybe I just need to know

Or I just need to find myself all over again.

And once I find myself,

Maybe I'll stop hurting you,

Stop all the mass destruction I keep making.