Stubborn Old Me >.<

For some reason,

I can't let loved ones in.

Complete strangers?

Why do I ever tell them my problems?

I have no freaking clue.

Maybe, I'm afraid of losing my loved ones.

Maybe, I just don't care what strangers think.

It's time to try harder,

To let the ones that matter in,

And keep the others out.

If I can get one last chance,

I promise to change my ways.

I'm a clam, a stubborn brat, and hard-headed.

I'm not used to being 100% open with someone I love.

Not used to receiving comfort from them.

I am trying my best now,

To change this.

I promise, I am.

Love should not be easy,

But it shouldn't be this hard either.

Maybe, on my part, I'm making it more difficult than it should be.

And I'm sorry I keep pushing my loved ones away.

It's how I have always been.

But now is the time to change this,

Because for once in my life,

I found a purpose, a love.

Found the one I don't ever want to let go.

Even if I keep pushing him away...

I am going to change my ways,

Just for him. because he means the world to me,

Even though I need to show it more >.<