Ella Relapse

Read Authors Note

Here's for the martyr
Call it out in vain
Holding the razor
Let the kiss
Caress my veins
Relapse bliss
Into the unknown
Holding steady
The game will overload
~*~
Ella has relapsed
They smile and cheer
Playfully mocking
Her every whim and care
Innocent teen
Taken away
All that is left
Decay has taken her place
~*~
Ella was thirteen
When she felt razors kiss
Now she clings
To the deepness
The fiery hiss
More of a notion
Than anything else
The only thing
She has control of
Is the pain she causes herself
~*~
Ella had friends
Who she once adored
Now she is abandoned
Left like dirt on the floor
Would the recognize
If they met on the street
Ella is certain
She is ready to except defeat
~*~
Find an outlet
Alice once said
Write it all down
Kill the thoughts in your head
Ella tried
For five weeks straight
Accomplished nothing
Then ran away
~*~
Newspaper clipping
And Photographs cover the floor
Her mother cries
Ella is no more
Put in the ground
twenty one years of age
What she left behind
Ceased to matter anyway
~*~
Here's for the martyr
Call it out in vain
Holding the razor
Let the kiss
Caress my veins
Relapse bliss
Into the unknown
Holding steady
The game will overload

Author's Note

I can't say that I relapsed into cutting, because I can't remember a time that I valued life enough to stop before now. I look down at that razor every time something goes wrong and think of my kids and of John. I think of the people who love me, who want me here and who are my friends no matter what mood I am in or no matter if I am on or off my medication. Thanks you guys.

Reviews

[ivizarx]

if you truly are going through problems, dis n***a is always here to talk... though a complete stranger, I've experienced these situations before, third-person perspective and first, through many different ways including the issue that seems to be yours at the moment...
I've devoted myself to never ingesting medication or drugs, other than recreational, of any kind (for depression or other problems like schizo) and have handled them well beyond the normal standard according to myself and professional psychs alike... so really, if you need someone, I've got an inbox waiting to be filled. helping out fellow human beings is the best thing ever a human could ever do with his/her life.

As for the poem, awesome structure even though it seems to be written in free verse. it's kept very tight and has easy reading abilities, hate to say "flow" cuz it necessarily doesn't fit. very much enjoyed it and good subject to write about except for the part of it being related to suicide, but that's just perspective. enjoy your work very much so, so thnk you for all your RRs

[KimLove "The Beautiful ..]

Stand strong my friend...Stand strong. xo

[Kenneth The Poet]

Yeah, even spouse and kids won't stop the want to try. A man shot himself last year where I live, left behind a wife and young kids. I really like this piece.

[Miss World]

I really liked this. I could relate. Great poem.

[joshua deathdealer]

Love this write Ali. My fave line is "The game will overload" A lot is said in that line, very powerful. I love the title as well. Excellent write. xoxo

[Magic plus the mayhem.]

I know that you can quit, I know that I can quit. Its just guna be a pain in the a*s. c: Love you,Love this pome. Stay you,stay strong.

[Kyla H]

Very good, I can tell this subject is quite emotional for you and you have allowed your thoughts and feelings to work its way throughout your work. Nicely done.

[Eile MacIntyre]

Really good. Absolutely amazing. Fantabulous! (Yes, a made up word just for you, to s how you how special this is)

[Helpless]

omg..... heartbreaking but fantastic write!