Never Enough

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This is for
The I love you's
You never said.
All the your beautifuls
That never left your lips,
All the nights
I cried alone
All the words
Left unknown
Here' to the lies
All cheats alike
All the times I tried
But you refused to fight
Here's to the times
Talking with friends
You played it off as if
My feelings were pretend
Don't worry about my "Friends"
I'll cover them next
This was for you
And what was never said.
~*~

I'm so fed up with

everyone around me

No one seems to care

I'm just so far gone

that nothing's gonna change

I'll never be the same

It's always do this do that

everything they want to

I don't want to live that way

Every chance they get they're always

Pushing me away

~*~

Never good enough

I thought in dread

Always silent

Leaving words unsaid

I'll fight for nothing

I've always wanted you

That was my mistake

I have seen the truth.

~*~

It's never enough no

It's never enough

No matter what i say

It's never enough no

It's never enough

I'll never be what you want me to be

~*~
To my friend

Through lies and deciet

I stood up for you

When they all caused a scene

Ultimate betrayal

A role you played well

Now you kill with your words

Make my thoughts decay as well

Hold your rumors

It's not easy for you

Tag me with names

Send me evil names

I wasn't there

You never let me stay

You never noticed

You caused more than fixed

Without you I'm bad

That I'll admit

But with you I'm so much worse

It makes me sick.

~*~

It's all so messed up

that no one ever listens

Everyone's deranged

It's just so fucked up

that i'm never gonna change

Or lay it all to waste

It's always say this say

that nothing that you want to

I don't want to live that way

Every chance they get they're always

Shoving me aside

~*~

Mindless followers

Fill their heads with lies

I was the backstabber

It will all come out in time

Mark me a w***e, psychotic, Idiotic

Labels you hoped to be true

That is the difference

Between me and you

I bite my tongue

Until it bleeds

You tend to bring out

The worst in me

With all that said

I hope you like

What you see

When it's time to view

The remnates of me

~*~

It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough, no it's never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be
I'M DONE!
~*~
I was never good enough
For any of you
If the is one thing I've learned
It's always follow through
After reading this
What will I mean to you?
You think you know so much
When truly you know nothing of me
I was never all talk
If you'd show
I'd prove it true
But you seem so afraid
When push came to shove
I half expected it from you
You hide in your rhymes
Trying to buy yourself time
How much longer
Until you step up
Except the consiquences of your crimes
~*~
I'd rather hate you
for everything you are
Than ever love you
for something you are not
I'd rather you hate me
 for everything I am
Than have you love me
for something that I can't become
~*~
Truant mindset
Where were you when I was in need?
Hiding way
Expecting me
To constantly please
Abstract thoughts
I believed we shared
Now I see
It was all a mirror
Years of torment
Ridicule, too.
Do you expect me to sit here
And take this from you?
All through school
I caught rumors heat
I don't want to sit here
And let you continue
The damage you caused me
Twist my words
Take them as you like
Because no matter what
There is no changing your life
~+~
It's never enough,
No matter what I say
It's never enough,
no it's never enough
No matter who I try to be
It's never enough,
no it's never enough
No matter how I try to taste
It's never enough,
 never never enough
I'll never be
what you want me to be
~*~
To all This will hurt
A sorry will fill your ear
Heartfelt are my whispers
That the wind carried here
In the end we're all
just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I've been given
I am what I am

Author's Note

Sorry It's so long.

[The parts of this poem that are bold are taken from one of my all time favorite songs, Never enough by five finger death punch.]

I will admit that I was feeling a lot of different emotions when I was writing this. To be honest, there are so many feelings that went into this one that I'm not even sure how to write this authors note. I hope you enjoyed this.

Reviews

[☯]

"This is for
The I love you's
You never said.
All the your beautifuls
That never left your lips,"
I loved the beginning of the poem and the end. The poem itself, punctuated dark, hard, and locked feelings. Lies, deceit, betrayal, and sensitive thoughts all put together. I really enjoyed reading this.

[Spookers]

"Here' to the lies" Correction: Here's
This was great. I love the emotions put into this.

[RedInk524]

Amazingly intense. A lot of lines stood out and made me double take.

I'd rather hate you
for everything you are
Than ever love you
for something you are not
I'd rather you hate me
for everything I am
Than have you love me
for something that I can't become

Yes! Goes along with my favorite quote. "Better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not."
Good poem, again, i love the flare.

[CharlesMonroe]

I love that song, and I can really relate to it, I had been listening to it on my way down to Arkansas repeatidly. And I love your poem. It was confusing, but at the same time I understood every word that you had wrote. It's sad, but beautiufl and strong.

[Kayla K]

I knew this would turn out great!

[Suzy Q]

"Mindless followers

Fill their heads with lies

I was the backstabber

It will all come out in time

Mark me a w***e, psychotic, Idiotic

Labels you hoped to be true

That is the difference

Between me and you

I bite my tongue

Until it bleeds

You tend to bring out


The worst in me

With all that said

I hope you like

What you see

When it's time to view

The remnates of me"

Favorite lines, it actually made me cry a little. I've been though a lot lately and it relates to this. It's going in my favorites. Simply beautiful.

[∂αʌ<..]

it was like i could go on and on and on and it just keep getting amazing on and on!
this poem is just like a splash of ink...it keeps reaching unreachable bounds which makes it wonderful!

[KimLove "The Beautiful ..]

Ali, I once thought I was an emotional writer but you are the all time best at it. What scares me most about you is I know, I can feel that it is all real. You are being tourmented by your own inner thoughts. Forgive my french, but f**k them whomever they maybe as your last line says I am what I am and NEVER f*****g apoligize to anyone for who you are. If they make you ill at heart they are not worth your time or your breathe. I really hope you understand me... Because I UNDERSTAND you way more then you know.

[joshua deathdealer]

This is a very strong and emotional poem. Its good to get these feelings out. I actually found myself thinking of similar instances in my life when I had feelings such as these. Excellent write Ali. Oh and I love five finger death punch.