Protected Plea

A Poem by Alicia Hirshey

Watch me cry
As I spit out my rhyme
Washed by the tide
It's been stained with time
~*~
Nothing will save me
I'm dying inside
Endless battle
It's War fought within
Nothing can save me
Not even him
~*~
Challenge me daily
Mock, but not to my face
What would you do
If you had taken my place?
~*~
Voices in my head
Used to be loving
Turned to games instead
I feel the razor calling
with every word that is said
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Not the smartest
I don't want to change
What does it matter
If the hurt consumes my brain
~*~
Never ending mockery
Childish lies
Sending emails
This brings tears to my eyes
~*~
I'm not okay
I never was
You made me this way
If not
Worse than I ever was
~*~
I never knew this woman
nor does she what I face
Hold your tongue
Keep your lies in their place
~*~
Nothing will save me
You drove me to hell
I can't keep living
Hoping for common ground
~*~
Drop your game
It's all an act
Somebody help me
In case it all comes back

© 2011 Alicia Hirshey

Author's Note

This isn't really pointed toward anyone or anything. It is a mixture of everything I am feeling. Just kinda thrown together. There is no certain emotion I have right now. It's like a wave crashing down on top of me with this pressure to be perfect, to be amazing, a savior of people. But even a savior bleeds.