Disappointed Hope

Couples therapy session today for John and myself. -see author's note

~Anger annoyance
Finding my place
Heart is sheltering
Screaming in my face
Bodily function
What is left to do
I scream on the inside
Hiding all of me from you~

Painful embrace
You held me near
Try to work through
Therapists appear
Save us from anger
Endless tug of war
Pulling the rope
No reason for sure

“Pull from the middle
Your sure to get hurt
Stubborn outburst
We all adore
Lash out
With nothing to bare
Holding back
It’s the only way out of here
Forgiveness concept
Lists full of fear
Hiding a notion
That won’t be read by anybody here
Reasons you love him
They stay hidden for me
It will all come out
When we next meet.”

Your not who I thought
Perfect wasn’t near
You hid secrets
To save me from here
Mistakes melt
Better to know
Then hide from yourself


“Write out a list
Express yourself
Tell him you love him
That he saved you from hell
Hold on to love
I can see it’s still there
If it means anything
You not alone
He is willing to share”

Lies are consuming
Honesty takes guts
Rest assured
It will not come back to haunt
I love you always
Baby, It’s you I hold dear
Hold me close
I will wipe your tears
Fear of losing
Has made us concrete
Maybe we should give in
Except defeat
I can’t let in
Knowing you won’t be near
Haven’t you noticed
I’m not afraid of fear

~Anger annoyance
Finding my place
Heart is sheltering
Screaming in my face
Bodily function
What is left to do
I scream on the inside
Hiding all of me from you~

Author's Note

Taken from a session with our therapist today, I turned it into a poem. The parts that are bold are the therapist talking, the parts that are Italic are me.

John and myself both worked out a lot of aggression today. I think we are starting to find a middle point. We were told we were playing a game of Tug of war with each other and we we both to stubborn to let go of our side of the rope and let the other win and if anybody was to stand in the middle and try to grab the rope the would end up hurt in the cross fire and that is where all our fighting was coming from. We also went in depth about what makes us feel loved. It was an amazing session and I learned more about John than I have ever known.

Homework given to us: Write out a list of the things that you love most about each other.

Reviews

[RedInk524]

Interesting. A middleground is needed for all differences in a relationship.

[☯]

I love this! I especially like how you formed an event into an amazing poem. I like the theme and the way you guys find more from a situation from anything else, it really shows that we have to really expect the unexpected. You portrayed another amazing and thoughtful poem :)

[∂αʌ<..]

i love the way you portrayed the whole scene...wish i could be as open as you!
anyway...good luck with your list then!

[Kaliou]

i love that this was taken from a therapist session and made into a poem... it's truly very powerful and you succeeded in projecting the emotions through your choice of words... excellent work :)

[~DeathByButterflies~]

The emotions are well exposed. It's nice to read a poem like this, one full of emotions and still holding some form of hope.

[Helpless]

hope always dissapoints... its a sad truth in life, but somehow through it all, hope is what always keeps us going. wonderful writing! :)

[Jess Holden]

:) this poem is soo full of emotion!! I love itt

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

Emotions well penned.

[CharlesMonroe]

Awh I love this, it's beautiful (: and I could feel the deep emotional connection in this poem before I read the A/N (: I hope it works out with you and John :D