Mirrored Reactions

Taken from many conversations I have had with my boyfriend. It was written in the form of a conversation to add to the effect. The parts that are bold and Italic are supposed to be him.

It took me a long time not to judge myself through someone else's eyes.  ~Sally Field
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Anguished disgust
It’s written on my face
Double chins
I can never erase
Pinch the skin
My thighs look like ham
My hair is ridiculous
So much for glam
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Imperfections make you, you
Love who you are
They way others see you
When you look in the mirror
Be like me
Lie to yourself
It will make it easier
You’ll see
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Easy to say
Look at you
Your body is perfect
Your skin the perfect hue
Hair golden
Tanned to the core
Quit playing innocent
You know what I mean
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Your going crazy
You need to eat
Your starvation lust is killing me
What does it matter
What those girls said
You are beautiful
Even when you first get out of bed
Don’t get yourself down
You’ll see soon enough
Please consider
Giving it up
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Black is the new pink
Makes me thinner
Even if it’s a scheme
I want to be something
More in my life
I want to see beauty
Be divine
Uniqueness is an option
But where will that road lead
Stick to what we know
Make me skinny
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If only you knew
Your running out of time
Your beautiful
The only one who doesn’t see
Give up this game
Your killing me
Giving into your lust
No food to eat
Stop critiquing
You are beautiful to me.

Author's Note

I never liked what i saw when I looked in the mirror and I still don't, I am constantly putting myself down, The tiniest flaw will send me out of control. A lot of people have told me that I lie when I say that I have problems with loving myself or Being okay with my weight. But they are wrong, I know what it is like to go days without eating for fear of becoming fat. And I know what it is like to try to hide who you are with makeup and false smiles.
I have learned to love myself, not completely but with help it is a work in progress.

Reviews

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You tell it!
So maazing and very well said.
I like this write, so much truth.

[Tasha]

this was really good, i liked this a lot. and i too know how you feel on this one.

[Sanctuary Dementia]

I know how you feel in this, it never seems like the body looks the way one wants it to, its a curse that is hard to break, Im glad your working on loving yourself, remember that we are our harshest critics. Dont let what anyone says thats bad about you get you down, remember you are more amazing than they will ever know, and that voice in the back of your head saying the same things stab it with a Q-tip.

[☯]

Wow, such an intriguing poem. And I've got to say, I've felt like this before, and I still do. I can relate to this strongly. People always tell you what you want to hear, but you yourself can't seem to make out what they mean. A very sad, but inspiring write. I really liked the two voices arguing the situation. An amazing write :)

[WynterPhoenix]

Looks like the crazies are back O.o Better call Opera!