Barren Wasteland

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled the one who could brighten up your day, even if she couldn't brighten her own.
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Crying is weakness
I will not let it show
Masking my pain
Letting the hurt flow
Hiding under the covers
My only safety is night
When morning comes
I will be alright

Hidden away
I will not let it show
You hurt me once
Now is your chance to gloat
I fight back the tears
Razor in hand
Fighting to survive
My barren wasteland

Mimicking my past
Promised you would repeat
How does it feel
You took all of me
Giving up on lessons
I was hoping to send
Where do I stand
Now it has to end

Horrible impressions
My skin begins to bare
River of crimson
Won’t save me from here
Bottle it up
Let it hide
Here it will come out
In the stillness of night

I loved you more
Than my body could bare
I held you close
I tried to be there
I wanted nothing more
Than to be there with you
But will nothing stop this pain
You made to be true.

Crying is weakness
I will not let it show
Masking my pain
Letting the hurt flow
Hiding under the covers
My only safety is night
When morning comes
I will be alright

Author's Note

People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well I've tried that I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles and what I've learned is that when it hurts this much inside your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks you wear.

Reviews

[Skateprincess]

*sighs* let me try this again I thought it posted that I reviewed it but apparently NOT.

Anyways I can relate to this and people don't realize that smiling does not make the world go around and it sometimes only provokes them to ask more questions when you don't want questions asked.

A thought provoking piece and well written

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This is so emotional and tugging.
So well written.

[Kayla K]

I believe that sometimes we should try to smile, but it's also sometimes better to just let it all out.

Great poem, I absolutely loved it. Made me think of me, in a way.

[WynterPhoenix]

The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears. ~John Vance Cheney

[Naomi Roseღ]

"I loved you more
Than my body could bare
I held you close
I tried to be there
I wanted nothing more
Than to be there with you
But will nothing stop this pain
You made to be true."
This stanza was wonderful. I could relate a lot to this poem and the Author's Note. Amazing write :)