Lithium Embrace

"Before you Judge me, Learn about what I go through. Learn about the battles I face on a daily basis."-Ali Gay

Medication induced
Method stability
Depression leaning
Happiness appealing
Reaching out
Walking in place
*
Endless methods
Learning to cope
Nothing will save me
What if I lose hope?
Longing for something
More of a life
*
Lithium embrace
Hold me dear
Control me
Keep me here
Holding me closely
Saving with grace
Staying with you
As you protect me
*
Losing loved ones
Can’t keep the feeling away
Sometimes it’s easier
To drug it away
Disorder to none
Only to some
Where would you go
If you had no where to run?
*
Losing myself
Fighting with time
Depression is deep
Not a state of mind
Losing a battle
Waged within myself
Longing for more
Welcoming the help
*
Interaction
Simple for some
How can this be
When it makes me want to run
Catching liveliness
Infectious like sin
Your words bring me down
It should be a sin.
*
Simple words
That mean nothing to some
Kill me inside
Biting the dust
Stupidity
A word they all place
Faker
Your afraid to face the day
*
Longest nights
I’ve ever spent
Losing sleep
Won’t slow me down
Won’t give in to it
*
Spouts of depression
They go on for months
Dark episodes
Are something I know
Falling down
Into this dark black hole.
*
Lithium embrace
Hold me dear
Control me
Keep me here
Holding me closely
Saving with grace
Staying with you
As you protect me
*
Losing myself
Fighting with time
Depression is deep
Not a state of mind
Losing a battle
Waged within myself
Longing for more
Welcoming the help
*
Medication induced
Method stability
Depression leaning
Happiness appealing
Reaching out
Walking in place
*
Endless methods
Learning to cope
Nothing will save me
What if I lose hope?
Longing for something
More of a life

Author's Note

Tomorrow I go back to the doctor for another mental evaluation. They want to make sure that my Bipolar hasn't gotten worse. They are messing with my medication. There are talks of Lithium. From what I have researched while on the Lithium I will finally discover what it is like to be happy. What it is like to leave this depression behind me. As I face tonight, I find myself more nervous than some. What awaits me is unknown. And I am afraid of the unknown. This is a memoir to What I go through on a daily basis. The struggles I face. I know that this won't tell you what having Bipolar Disoder is like but I hope that it does give you some insight.

Reviews

[Jess Holden]

wonderful, and good luck!!

[Vanessa Rico]

You and I have talked on this subject of being bipolar. As you know my sister has it and when you wrote this poem...it gave me a bit of insight that she goes through on a daily basis. I have always tried to be there for her when she needs it, but it is hard sometimes, when she lashes out and blames me for everything that went wrong in her life. Yet, it is hard for her to! I love you Ali, and I hope that your evaluation went all right! This poem truly touched me and I am glad that you had the guts to put out this out there. You are one brave woman and mommy! I am also afraid of the unknown so I can understand where you are coming from! Such a beautiful write and again, if you need me you know where to find me! Much love to you beautiful mommy and friend!

[Kayla K]

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Speechless. Absolutely speechless.

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Thank you for sharing this.

[RedInk524]

Spouts of depression
They go on for months
Dark episodes
Are something I know
Falling down
Into this dark black hole


I know how that feels. And there is little to nothing that can be done during those. Good poem.

[MadeCheaply]

I know where your coming from. I am being bounced around like a cat toy trying new meds to make the pain go away.
Nothing ever seems to work

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I am so sorry you are Bipolar, i have known some people that are. they have to get testing done to make sure their meds they take don't interact, they come out fine. They are just making sure none of yoru meds are interacting and making sure they are ok with what they are taking still. Wish you well with your test.

[∂αʌ<..]

"where would you go when you have nowhere to go"...you put your feelings,your fear so well in words...thank you so much for sharing...
i think you have a strong personality and keep on trying...coz you have a climbing faith nestled inside yourself!

[Chloe]

This is extremely touching and the fact that you're sharing something so personal makes this work of art even more amazing. I applaud your bravery in being so open and I'm sure I can speak for everyone that reads this poem that we hope that you find that peace that you're hoping for.

[Layla J Omorose]

First off I absolutely love th tittle of this poem. Second being that it is reflective of your life and all the struggles you g through just makes this poem all the more powerful. And you are not alone in your fear of the unknown. We all (for our own various reasons) fear our own unknown...job well done.