A Mother's Pain

Loneliness,
This feeling I cannot deny.
This emptiness,
That stays so deep inside.
A pain,
That will not fade away.
At the age of twenty,
I feel as if I have one foot in my grave.
You took him away,
At the hospital that day.
Now I no longer believe I am even okay.
You took my heart,
My reason for living.
You have no remorse,
You hold that over my head.
When you took my child from me,
You took my power to live along with him,
On that warm August day.
It's hard to go on.
I fight day to day,
To fake this happiness,
That way people believe me,
When I say I'm okay.
I want to be strong,
But I no longer feel,
I can carry on.
Without him here,
My reason for living,
Keeps slipping further away.
I want to give up,
I want to stand on my own,
Keep moving on,
But the fact of the matter is,
I'm just not that strong.
Without my angel here with me,
I have no reason left to go on.

Author's Note

There is no pain like losing a child, Whether it be custody or death. It changes a person. They grow cold. But as I look back through my experience I've learned that We do not get over grief, But over time, we do learn to live with the loss. We learn to live a different life... With out loss.