Mind Games

Venting out some frustration.

For too long I have been broken

All these pieces of me scattered.

So many years of lonely sadness

My heart has long been shattered.

 

Ghostly whispers in my broken soul

I fear I'll never rest in peace.

Demons and nightmares endlessly haunting

Until the day I'm finally deceased.

 

I try to live in the beauty

Of life's most beautiful graces.

Cherishing every moment of love

Imagining smiles on these faces.

 

Asphyixiated, drowning in tears

Unable to get a strong grip.

Trying so hard to keep moving on

In this chapter of my life I want to skip.

 

I keep wondering in time

When this blackness will ever end.

So much sadness within my heart,

I pray to God when will it mend.

 

These people that surround me

They just don't seem to understand.

The sharpness of their words,

My life, I cannot withstand.

 

'Fat, ugly, beautiful with a heart

Always needing to smile more.'

Never getting the one simple fact

They are making my f*****g head sore.

 

They force the voices to linger,

While I'm alone on this cold floor.

With a bottle of wine in one hand

Trying to find an end to this mindgame war.

 

Sure, I'm your friend

Though you tear my heart in two.

Deep inside my aching head

I'm actually cursing aloud at you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[An owl on the moon]

I could feel the overwhelming sadness here.. the pain that lingers in and out of shadows. You speak out in words the emotions that grip so many of us at times..

[J.A.N]

Intense.
Written quite well,
I could feel the words building, and the frustration.
Great write, no doubt.

-j

[Valentine]

Some pain is physical..one can run from that..mental abuse is much harder to stop..You have expressed me at a younger age very well..Lol and God bless..Kathie