My Dark December

Why I hate December.

Frozen tears in the dead of winter

I wish I could not remember.

The days that haunt my mind

On my cold and dark December.

 

The days were so much brighter

In the years of yesterday.

Holiday cheer mixed with joy,

Waiting for Santa on his sleigh.

 

The exchange of gifts,

With a turkey and a smile.

Spreading the joy of Christmas

Made the days seem worthwhile.

 

I can remember those days well,

As the lights of the trees brightly glow.

Never thought my Christmas days

Would be of saddness and woe.

 

Christmas lights turn to hospital lights

As I watch my grandmother slowly die

A bag of skin and bones, barely even alive

In a dark corner I sit alone and cry.

 

The days of joy and happiness,

I try so hard to remember.

But I will never forget the agony

Of my cold and dark December.

Reviews

[Valentine]

I lost a baby on Christmas Eve when I was 36,,,,each year the pain haunts me..But I know I will get to see the baby in Heaqven..lol and God bless..Katihe

[serpent]

i am sorry for your loss...but i am sure the beautiful memories of the good old times will help ease the pain.

[Y.F.]

I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. Knowing you I'm assuming this isn't fiction. Losing someone close is never easy, even if they've had a full life. Every fallen star leaves a void in the sky, no matter how dim his light might have become.
As always, I'm here if you need anything.

[An owl on the moon]

There is such a sadness here.. the letting go.. the memories that will forever linger of that painful time... Yes.. the darkness can seem so overwhelming.. So very sorry for your loss...