Fatal Flaw

Thoughts that ran through my mind in the past week or so. Written as intended.

 

Time slips away, gone unnoticed

Reminiscing the painful memories

That have bounded me to the darkness

As I was once too weak

To escape from the chains.

 

It was nearly fatal,

And my existence was jeopardized

By the demons that binded me

In the blackness of my own flaws.

So perfectly flawed.

 

It was enough to shatter me

Shattering my soul like broken glass

The shards that have cut me

Deeply wounding every aspect of my living.

These fragile strawberry gashes

That serve as a painful reminder

But yet strangely so, an awarding one.

I was not defeated entirely.

And shall continue fighting,

With the bloody sword I hold

Until my end finally does come.

 

There is still a lonely girl, broken

Staring back at me through the mirror

In her sorrowful tearing eyes

Fighting for a reason to long unawsnered questions.

Why did I suffer for so long....

After all the hurt I have been through

Why am I an orphan of God's gentle nature

Who never once lended out His hand when I needed Him.

When I desperately needed to be saved...

 

I did it alone, as I learned and fought

Climbing my way through the mountains of tragedy.

A bone heals, a bruise fades, but Art is forever

And I did it all on my own.

Alone...

 

It is but a fatal flaw

Traveling the roads of life living in silence,

Without a voice, to never speak your mind,

When speaking your mind you must.

Even though it may mean losing a friend, gaining a foe

Another enemy to add to my collection.

 

I am an enemy against the world,

Weakly voice, soul-strong renegade

Fighting for what she believes.

Investigating the truth, exposing the lies.

Though I refuse to speak among society

And bring out the truth that lies within me.

 

Inside I still wish to be someone else,

And destroy the ugly monster that I am.

Something special, a goddess, a deity

Who may one day rule the world.

But I am not...nor shall ever be.

I am perfectly flawed, and shall remain

A nothing among all other nothings.

 

We are just pawns...

Born to live, bred to die.

Watching ourselves slowly destroy what we are

Without any realization at all,

The world may soon end

And human existence will perish along with it.

And we should congradulate our most benevolent leaders

For vomiting on the definition of human nature...

 

But we are all the same, perfectly flawed

Wishing to be someone we are not

Hiding the truth of our insides, exposing the lies.

A fatal flaw of human kind,

As we go on with our daily lives

Killing each other while killing ourselves.

Fatal flaws of humanity...

 

 

Reviews

[Valentine]

Sometimes in life ones worst enemy is themselves and the only one that can get it stopped is you..As long as you hang on to these feelings the longer they will stay with you. If you cannot find one good thing to think about whan your mind turns black..walk outin the mooonlight..look at the stars or walk out in the sun and see all of nature's beauty setting there to enjoy..Your illness can be defeated hon..but ponly by you..yourself..Until you really want it to go away,,it won't God bless..I will be praying for you..Valentine

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Very deep and powerful words... if we hold in our feelings then it becomes a mental burden on our minds and in our hearts and souls causing irreparable damage... this seems to be such a personal write but one many can relate to and I applaud you for baring your soul like this.

[julian3]

The painted canvas is overlaid in hues of nihilistic black, desolate angst-streaked grey and midnight scarlet slashes of introspection.... a powerful gathering of emotions, thoughts and poignant observations, about self, other, humanity and fate. This is truly complex and it hits with an impact.

[Silent Kim aka mizmetap..]

Fatal Flaws, We go through life with ups and downs and when things don't go our way our disappointment causes us to believe we are alone and reject the exsistence of God. Mom use to say He don't always give you what you want when you wanted but He will give you what you need when you need it.

Your poem expressed emotions on anger and loneliness, your chice of words and how you chained them together was don't prefectly. A very good write.

[Jessica Fox]

I can relate too, the past week's thoughts have been along the same lines sort of. Another great write

[These Haunted Hallways]

I could definitely relate to this poem. These constant battles seem like we can never win, and just wish that everything was good instead of bad, and never a curse. We all wish it. This write touched me a lot. That mountain seems like Everest to me. Like it will never end. But i hope that something good will come out of this life, and soon. Thanx so much for this :)

B.A.

[Nik Dendera]

A director once said "Pain is temporary, but film is forever." Dunno which director it was, though...

Nice piece. I'm half way down my own mountain. Set up basecamp and batten down for a long night.

Enjoyed this, great ideas behind it.

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

Very well written. Good job. Thank you for sharing. Debileah