(Anti-Septic Tears)

Music wrapped around my ears

Needs to get louder

But the scroll bar says it's full volume

Crashing drums

Screeching violins

Waling choirs

I want it louder

Make my ears bleed.

 

(my) Hands on the steering wheel

I'm in Control.

(my) Foot on the pedal.

I need to go faster

But the needle says its full speed.

180

As

Fast

As

It

Goes

I want to go faster

Make me crash.

 

Home made stitches in my skin

Was there anaesthetic

The needle was sharp

They won't dissolve

Pick them out with my fingernails

Make me bleed all over again.

 

Ice cold water over (my) hot black nail varnish

Smudged with your finger prints.

What was next?

Oh yes

Cut them (me?) down to size

Crack the black

Make me _______? (Unquestionable)

 

Anti-septic washes the wound

Makes it sting

But makes it heal

Watch me

(Like a monkey in a zoo)

Make me pine (I’ll heal soon enough anyway)

 

(My?) Salt tears erode the (perfect?) stone statue

        (my) Arms around his neck

        (My) head on his shoulder

        Untouched by the world

        But watched by the world

        On our

        Stage of stone

        Make me invisible (to much to wish hope for)

 

The darkness is unbearable

I can't see my hand in front of my face

No difference between open or closed

Accelerate out of the darkness

Crash into the blinding light (night)

(I’m not allowed here)

Stumble into the grey

(Can you see yourself?)

I can - Just

Let me see (I’m almost there)

 

Ribbon in her hair

Life just seems so good

But we know better

Lipstick on her lips

Life just seems so easy

But we were taught better

Make me innocent

 

        Death by Hanging

                  (Used his head phones)

(The) wire cuts into his skin

        But it doesn't quite break his neck

        Hangs there for a while

        Unconscious(ly)

        Wrote no note

        He’s too heavy for the wire

        It strains

        It snaps

        But he was dead before he hit the ground

(Oh lord) Make me forget.

 

Press the capsules through from the other side

(The empty drug packet looks on)

We don't need telling this

It’s empty

The girl took them (the one with the ribbon)

She didn't read the safety leaflet

(Don’t think safety was on her mind)

Make me take this seriously.

 

I need to stop

This thing could go on forever

And I’ve forgotten how the beginning goes

Make me remember.

 

Author's Note

(the line {Like a Monkey in a Zoo} is taken from the song by the same name by Daniel Johnston....although the cover by Vic Chesnutt is better...)

Reviews

[fireblossom]

Facing the scalding reality of life strips us to bare wires. This was stark like black and white piles of dead victims. The dead puppet bags were real but I don't enjoy looking at them. I don't need to eat bitter herbs every day to realize they exist. On the other hand it does no good to ignore reality. For that I thank you.

This poem is brilliant though tragic. Too bad we humans have arrived to this point. We need more than a new administration heal the scars you describe.

All the best.

[Cassidy Mask]

Beth... that was... amazing
I've never read anything like it
It's so.... crikey i cant even think of the words...
Damn u fiend :P