F**k, Why Can't I Quit Loving

Love is in full when you let it flow on by, allowing everything to go in sync with the universe. I call it unconditional detached love, a simple concept but a helpful one at that.

"F***k, Why Can't I Quit Loving"

I can't stop tearing up because I saw your smile and realized your not here beside me. I feel useless when your hurting and because I can't alter the past and make it brighter for you. I submerge within isolation because the suffocating separation persists even heavier than yesterday. I can't stop analyzing if I arose annoyance with my constant longing to communicate, and as a result only internally ruin myself even further. I'll never let go of my dedication to embark on the journey in discovery of your eternal happiness that you all so rightfully deserve. I can't even fathom the fact that I'd even consider harming myself, just because I'll never feel good enough as a human. I don't even want to accept the fact that it's beginning to go about the same path in which the prior life went, sadly that's all I can conclude momentarily. I can't even begin to wipe the tears from my face, because I've realized that they no longer mean much. It's only remnants of a life of disrupted solace and oneness with all things beautiful. I can't stop questioning if I screwed up continuously, but when I become inseparable to the now, I forget about every thought along those lines. When I focus on the sole fact that your still here and always will be, I again feel beauty. When I realize that your embarking on your own personal endeavors, I feel hopeful and realize your life will withhold every amazing adventure imaginable. When I stop and realize the fact we're here and will always be there for each other when the instance arises, I no longer fear anything. When I realize I have an outlet to express every personal emotion within myself, and more importantly, can show you, I know that is what love is. When I see you and spend any and every moment with you in this life, I feel love. When I realize my own admiration and care for you can be represented in the form of allowing and accepting you to discover your own way, I feel unconditional love for you. When I take a second, recollect and gather myself, empty my mind and focus on what's being expressed, I realize your the first person whom I've felt unconditional detached love for.