Castaway in a Social World

Where is the life that is mine

Left staring and turning from the divine

I’ve lost what I had

Everything but the emotion of sad

I lost my girl

Leavin my heart in a whirl

Somewhere along the road my faith jumped out

That or after some abuse I pushed it too far and made it change route

Now I stare and wander in black

With my burdens and luggage strapped to my back

I am a shell

A man destined for hell

Wicked, cruel, manipulative

God is good and just, then why don’t I know if He’ll forgive

I’ve had so many masks I don’t know which is my face

Happy, sexy, lover, sad, depressed, Christian, alcoholic…I am a disgrace

One day in a world better than this

The people up there will open their fly look at me and take a piss

The one that hurts worst is You and You and You

The one who said you’d never leave, but now you’re through

I cannot be everything for everyone

Cause I know not who I am for one

Maybe if I find myself things will be better

Or no if I see the truth in this letter

Is this life but a joke

Cause the reality is runnin to broke

Im scared of where this road leads

No more harvest, fruit, plant, or seeds

Reviews

[Wicahpi]

In many ways I relate.
I believe in this world we all have/wear many masks.
I for one, do. For the real face of me can't stand
anymore that this life has to offer me.

Nice write. Forthcoming & Emotional.
Not typical of so many men...

Thanks for it's sincerity.

[emmajoy]

' I've had so many masks I don't know which is my face / Happy, sexy, lover, sad, depressed, Christian, alcoholic�I am a disgrace ' - no, not really, you're just human!

This is a truly sad poem, but so well written, even though it flows with tears..