how to build trust in love again when it's lost

Take a breath right now, and notice how abundant the air is, full of life-giving oxygen offered freely by trees
and other green growing things. You can’t see air, but it’s always available for you.
Love is a lot like the air. It may be hard to see – but it’s in you and all around you.
In the press of life – dealing with hassles in personal relationships and bombarded with news of war and
other conflicts – it’s easy to lose sight of love, and feel you can’t place your faith in it. But in fact, to
summarize a comment from Ghandi, daily life is saturated with moments of cooperation and generosity –
between complete strangers! Let alone with one’s friends and family.
Love is woven into your day because it’s woven into your DNA: as our ancestors evolved over the last
several million years, many scientists believe that love, broadly defined, has been the primary driving force
behind the evolution of the brain. Bands of early humans that were particularly good at understanding and
caring for each other out-competed less cooperative and loving bands, and thereby passed on the genes of
empathy, bonding, friendship, altruism, romance, compassion, and kindness – the genes, in a word, of love.
Nonetheless, even though the resting state of your brain – its “home base” when you are not stressed, in
pain, or feeling threatened – is grounded in love, it’s all too easy to be driven from home by something as
small as a critical comment in a business meeting or a frown across a dinner table. Then we go off to a
kind of inner homelessness, exiled for a time from our natural abode, caught up in the fear or anger that
makes love seem like a mostly-forgotten dream. After a while, this can become the new normal, so we call
homelessness home – like becoming habituated to breathing shallowly and forgetting the richness of air
that would be available if we would only breathe deeply.
So we need to come home to love. To recognize and have confidence in the love in your own heart – which
will energize and protect you, even when you must also be assertive with others. To see and have faith in
the love in others – even when it is veiled or it comes out in problematic ways. To trust in love that’s as
present as air, to trust in loving that’s as natural as breathing.
How?
Take a breath. Notice how available air is, how you can trust in it. Notice the feeling of being able to rely on
the air.
Bring to mind someone who loves you. Feel the fact of this love – even if it is, to paraphrase John
Welwood, a perfect love flowing through an imperfect person. Can you feel your breath and body relaxing,
as you trust in this person’s love for you? Can you feel your thoughts calming, your mood improving, and
your heart opening to others? Let it sink in, that trusting in love feels good and refuels you. Then if you like,
do this same reflection with other people who love you.
Bring to mind someone you love. Feel the reality of your love; know that you are loving. As in the paragraph
just above, absorb the benefits of recognizing and trusting in your love. Try this with others whom you love.
Scan back over your life and notice some of the many times when there was love in your heart – expressed
one way or another, including generosity, kindness, patience, teamwork, self-restraint, affection, and caring.
Appreciate as well that there have been many times when you wanted to love, were looking for someone or
something to love (friends and good causes, too, not just romantic partners), or longed for more love in
your life. These are facts, and you can trust in them – trusting in the lovingness of your heart.
In situations, open to your own lovingness. Privately ask yourself questions like: As a loving person, what is
important to me here? Trusting in love, what seems right to do? Remember that you can be strong – and if
need be, create consequences for others – while staying centered in love or one of its many expressions
(e.g., empathy, fair play, goodwill). What happens when you assert yourself from a loving place?
Tune into the lovingness in others, no matter how obscured by their own homelessness, their own fear or
anger – like seeing a distant campfire through the trees. Sense the longing in people to be at peace in their
relationships, and to give and get love. What happens in a challenging relationship when you stay in touch
with this lovingness inside the other person? Notice that you can both feel the lovingness in others and be
tough as nails about your own rights and needs.
Don’t sentimentalize love or be naïve about it. Trusting in love does not mean assuming that someone will
love you. It means confidence in the fundamentally loving nature of every person, and in the wholesome
power of your own lovingness to protect you and touch the heart of others. It means coming home – home
by the hearth of love.