I wish she's me

Try love, they said. Succumbed to its poison, bath in its lies and enjoy the pain �" as it demands to be felt. Then I did. Walls I’ve built for years were crashed to pieces as I embraced him. The only guy I have chosen. But,

 

I wonder if he’ll be the best version of himself if he’s with someone else.

I wonder if he would listen to every story she’d tell, unmoving, heart, mind and soul, all focus to her.

And that he’d understand her, accept her and hold her like precious shells

Because she has been all alone, oh how cold it is out there

 

I wonder if he’d give her more attention,

The ones I needed, the kind he cannot give

I wonder if he’d uplift her,

Praise her, appreciate her

The kinds of words I long to hear, the kinds of words he wouldn’t dare tell

 

I wonder if he really loves me,

Or just likes me because I’m the one who’s here,

 

He’s someone that everyone deserves,

The kind of man who’d make you cry because of laughter,

The kind of someone who would do anything just to make you smile,

But I know he could do so much more,

And I know not to me, but to someone else

 

He could’ve been nicer to me so I wish he will be more to her.

When she comes, I wish he’ll treat her better.

 

I wonder if he’d think less of him and more of her.

 

I wish that someone else is me.

Reviews

[YanZeros]

I like self reflective writing like this, this is what it feels like to be loved and sometimes you feel like you don't deserve that kind of love. Overwhelming love. I'm glad you're back Bam!

This reminds me of the song She Used to Be Mine
Song by Sara Bareilles

[Bambee]

It's actually the other way around. It isn't an overwhelming love, it is lacking in so many levels. Reason why she's wondering if the guy can do more if he's with someone else. And that she's wishing it is her, that he would realize she deserves more. But men are too dense to do so
LOL.

[YanZeros]

Oh boi... I guess I read it on different perspective. Sorry Bam for my wrong interpretation of the poem. 😬