Definition: Cold

Invasive precautions dismissing my confessions

mistake realised: my mood clashed with the day

when I arrived it wasn't the sun that got in my eyes

they bled like the sky, unfriendly and gray

wait a second, the weather's changing

despite my curse the sun is ranging

rollingover spitting laughter

knowing what s**t's coming after

you may find my spirit burning

waking up from me locked inside these blurring walls

slurring to speeds trapped within four crushing walls

then I was tried in the disarming sunshine

included this time in their dead disarray

waiting dreamlessly to be revived

but nothing peaceful left in me survived

thought if I arranged for my own slaughter

my mouth would fill up with holy water

but I tasted nothing but hurting

came to see again Satan leaving me to freeze

"forgive me" I screamed

I'm not insensitive to your pleas

but when I was left to freeze

I knew the definition of cold

 

any acceptance I felt was cold

the creeping dread I felt was cold

my fake tears dried on me cold, so cold.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[dreaming dame]

That is cold. So cold. An sad. But beautifully written. A wonderful piece:) you jus keep getting better

[Coyote Poetry]

"but nothing peaceful left in me survived
thought if I arranged for my own slaughter"
A powerful tale in this poem. I had to read the poem a few times. The thoughts in the poem made me want to know more. I like the ending to the outstanding poem.
Coyote

[Sugar Plum ♥]

Oh no..I feel all this cold, I know what it means, i feel your sounds of anger and despair and emptiness with : Blurring, slurring, crushing ...The walls make trap for your heart...How in this cold to survive? I loved the deep feeling, so honest expression in words...very good!
~nia~

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Amazing piece of writing..the hurt captured perfectly...