Whirlpool of emotions causes most commotions

At first it was just a dream,
Something bittersweet,
Like eating the cherry last after eating all the whipped cream.
Be careful what you wish for
Because you just might get it and more.
Because not even soap and tears
Could clean the mess of 11 years.
Unfamiliar faces,
Unknown places.
Everything is so new and full of adventures,
So many things I still have yet to venture.
Why am I feeling so blue
Because I haven't got a clue.
What if this is all just a nightmare?
What if I'm just caught in fear's snare?
I'm scared to death,
And I feel like I'm being cut up and made into a puppet by the devil's chef.
It's all a show and I'm the star.
All I hope is that I'm not too far
From your grasp.
Please don't scream, please don't gasp
When you see my current state.
All I ask if you to save me
From what this monster has made me be.