R.I.P Ira Mitchell

This is something i wrote for a close friend a couple years back... I lost a GOOD friend and I miss him;)

Its been 9months since that fatal day

I havent been able to mourn the right way...

The way I found out was life changing, heart breaking.. i lost it..

 

I remember us having our usual conversation....

  and it ending with... "I cant wait to see u" wit so much anticipation...

I dont know what happen after that...

 Days, Weeks, and Months past by me

I knew u stayed on the grind so maybe u lost track of time...

So I decided to give it a try and call my best friend...

The friend I've known since grade 10...

 

I remember calling and asking for u

The voice on the other end told me to hold... while she got your mother

Im thinkin... his mother?

I sat there clueless

Not expecting.. what was comin next...

 

It was July, the summer was passing us by

 

She got on the phone and asked who was callin

I told her my name and that I was an old friend and that I had been away at school....

She said "baby.... He passed away in May"

I dont know what was going thru my mind at the time

   but Im like "r u serious"

   she said yeah, "he died in a police chase"...

My heart went full speed at a fast pace...

 

I hung up and cried like never before

  it felt like the life was being sucked out of me right from the core....

I was so upset...

I.. Blamed.. U... for everything..

I dont know y but it felt like u left me on purpose...

I was stressed, depressed and lifeless...

I couldnt think about u without shedding a tear...

I closed my eyes and thought maybe this is a nightmare....

But it wasnt...

 

So I questioned God, and asked him y...

 since u couldnt answer me maybe he could tell me y u had to die...

I was angry with u...

what were u thinkin...

that just wasnt like u...

I thought u were startin over new...

...especially for the 2 beautiful seeds that bloomed...

 

Its been 9months since that fatal day

I havent been able to mourn the right way...

The way I found out was life changing, heart breaking.. i lost it..

 

Today is February 14th, Valentines day...

I dont know why it had to be this day but I finally mourned the right way...

 

I forgive u for leaving me without a warning, a good bye, a smile, a hug, a touch.....

I know your not here but sometimes I wanna call u, just to see if u'll answer...

I want to hear yo voice one last time to tell u I love u and u'll always be my best friend...

   I pray to God that he'll let u speak to me,

   I dont care if its even in my sleep.

   I just want u to say that no matter what... u'll always be with me...

 

R.I.P Ira a.k.a Roc

May 10, 2007

Reviews

[Dutch Jr.]

Wow, your words were mournful and sincere, and its sad that he had to leave you. Keep him living in your memories, though. God bless the dead.

[Soul Magic✯]

this is a very touching piece sis. i too know how it feels to lose someone dear. beautiful ink... he will always live in your heart *hugs*