To Be Me

There are things I want to say

But I can't

Things I should say

But I won't

Things I try to say

But I don't know how

Pent-up frustration

Tears

Joy

Worries

Things that they should know

But they never will

Shove me in a pretty box

Wrap it with shiny paper

Give it a neat little bow if you like

I'm just a toy to you

I'll never be more to you

I'll never be human to you

Just a name

Just an idea

Just a mind

Just a body

Just a pawn

Never just a person

Take my voice

As if I'm not using it

And I'm not

It's just a part of me

It'll never be an instrument

Never used as it's meant to be

Whatever you like

It's all yours

I don't need it

I've never used it

I'll miss it

I'm being selfish

But how will I know who I am

If all of me is gone

Never you mind

Give it all

Keep what little you need

Relinquish the rest

I'm taking back my voice

My brain, my heart

They are mine and mine alone

No longer shall you poison me

No longer shall you use me

I now know what is means

To

Be

Me