Self-Destructive

I was stupid

Wasn't I?

How could I have thought

This time would be any different?

 

I should've known

I'd get left behind once more

It's happened so many times before

It should've been clear

 

But it still hurts

And don't say you get it

Because you'd be lying

Because none of you understand

 

I've been hurt too many times

People keep dying

People keep leaving

I always feel alone

 

I gave myself hope

Foolish mistake

I'm too smart to be optimistic

But I'm still not a realist

 

I'm innocent

Even though it may not seem that way

I don't understand you people

Nothing makes sense anymore

 

I thought this year would begin anew

But I'm constantly experiencing deja-vu

History likes to repeat itself

And it's breaking my heart

 

I miss you

And I hate them

They took you away from me

My rock is gone and I'm adrift

 

I'm falling inwards

Self-destructive

I don't want you to save me

Because you probably won't anyways

 

No

I'm not going to be alright

Yes

I'm going to cry myself to sleep tonight

 

I though you'd be here

But you aren't

So who can I depend on?

Who will help me now?

Reviews

[falling_toxic_rain]

to be honest, when i stumbled across your poem, it's name was sure to catch my eye. I surely clicked to read and read. it sounds like mine...I'm certain we haven't gone through the same, but we do write what we are, how we feel.
I to am 14, freshman in high school, thought this was a new beginning. i couldn't be more wrong. i haven't found myself yet....
Overall i really enjoyed this.