A Look Remembered

A thought today

of a moment

that didn’t happen

 

Had I been quicker

older or better

perhaps it would’ve

 

You wondered why

I railed against it

while I wondered

how I couldn’t

 

The sinking feeling between us

pulled apart the ground

 

A gaping maw now cackles

in the place

where the ground once stood

 

On the rare occasion

I sneak a glance

across the divide

towards the place

I last saw you

 

Your face was cold

your eyes brimmed

with sad hatred

 

There is nothing now

but a cloud

casting shadows in the distance

 

I am out of the shade now

and back in the sun

 

Yet I still find myself wondering

what might this all look like

through your eyes

 

Then and now

 

In hindsight and fore

 

Did you see me coming

or at all

 

I wonder sometimes

if it was ever as real

as either of us imagined