Confessions of an ADHD Girl

Trying to accurately put into words how your brain works is harder than you would think.

I have a hard time sitting still in any situation,

And if you ask me for my conversation,

My lack of eye contact

Might make our words collapse.

I start a lot of things,

But don’t finish them.

My thoughts start out big

But then diminishes.

I wish I could..

But I can’t.

Talk eloquently,

But here I stand.

Like a sugar rush,

My ideas come all at once

If only my mouth or my hands

Could keep up.

I wish I knew why department stores overwhelmed me,

I only know that more stimulus means

More heavy breathing

Hand clinching

Nail biting

Oh! And a sale in aisle 3.

I’m impulsive and reckless,

Emotional and spontaneous.

I think that maybe,

Could medicine?

But that isn’t me.

So I’ll live with this illness

That is maybe a real gift.

To be able to live

With such vibrance for life

That I read the same sentence 12 times.

Maybe I’ll go for a hike today,

Maybe I’ll get a piano and learn to play,

Maybe I’ll earn enough money

To pay attention,

The first time someone tells me their name

Or those directions…